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TOYAH'S BLOG 2013

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JANAURY 2013


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL !!!!!!!!!!! And hasn’t 2012 gone ridiculously quickly?

It seems like yesterday the band where playing Shepard’s Bush and Bristol Tunnels. It feels like only last week we played the O2 Islington!

Now I am getting ready to tour HORMAONAL HOUSEWIVES, dealing with the press for 67 dates, all in different towns and setting up the touring schedule for the TOYAH BAND in the autumn as well as organising HUMANS 3 being signed in the UK.

All this and 2 shows a day for SLEEPING BEAUTY, which continues to be a joy.What a lovely company, I’ve never known a team support each other and value each other so much. Part of this is the fact we are all in this hectic schedule together, we all have the same highs and lows, the same joys, the same aches and pains but most of all we are carried along by fantastic audiences and we are all lifted by their joy and enthusiasm at 10.30am and 2.30pm AND 7pm.

So far there has been a miraculous low incident rate, everything appears to be working, even the notoriously complex but massively funny bathroom scene has not failed. Goodness knows how many gallons of water it uses. There was one incident when there appeared to be phantom in the theatre who adjusted the temperature gage to boiling so the actors where scolded during one performance, this was the same performance where all the record covers for the “record” gag where swapped around to spoil the act . . . but that all stopped and we are still clueless to who and why this was done.W ith panto, because there are so many shows, there’s always strange quirky incidents going on but for this show those incidents are very low.

I’ve not fallen off stage . . . yet . . . not been caught or accidentally hooked up to the scenery. There was one occasion when a rather huge lump off a light fell and almost hit my head but that seems eons away now and the thing is it didn’t hit my head. Yes I have had the norovirus! On Christmas evening, well Boxing Day morning my husband found me unconscious in the bathroom at home at 1am but by 3am it had passed and I was able to do the boxing day shows. Oh and I have torn the cartilage in my left knee but this is simply managed by my not pivoting on my left leg and not being lifted in the songs. I just walk forwards and back wards and run in little granny steps . . . all perfectly manageable!!!!!!

My favourite part of the show is performing “Enter The Sandman” with Wongy coming on stage and delivering a blinding solo, it is brilliant! The hair stands up on the back of my neck for every show and as I run off stage with the dancers we all say “we love that scene!” And we have all been told off by the director for extending the jokes and pushing all boundaries but that is to be expected from both actors and directors alike.

One of the most bizarre comments we have had about the show was in a letter from “disgruntled” who wrote “I had the displeasure of seeing your pantomime last night and was horrified to hear a joke about the Margate mass murderer!” We really scratched our heads over what on earth this refered to, as no one would dream of saying anything so offensive when we realised they were referring to a line in my last scene where the dame says to me . . . "What shall we do with her boys and girls, make her do pantomime in Margate!” This innocent joke had been translated in “disgruntled” letter as “put her under the patio in Margate.”

2013 is now well under way and the phone is ringing non stop. I have a very good feeling about this year. There is so much going on and a lot to be excited about and I hope it feels the same for you too. We are looking at getting a full video ready for SENSATIONAL, so more news on that soon. Hope you’ve heard it on TV on the Weight Watchers advert (view on homepage) featuring Patsy Kensit!

Have a wonderful 2013 and I will see you out there! I would like to dedicate this letter to UNCLE BILL who passed away at 2am on the 3rd Jan. He is my husband’s uncle and was a huge supporter of our work. Bill, or Alfie, was an inspiration and he taught me that every second, every minute, every day is a gift.

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXX

DEDICATED TO ALFIE FRIPP . . . UNCLE BILL!


FEBBUARY 2013

HELLO . . . HURRAY! . . . IT’S FEBRUARY!

I’ve just read the script for HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES for about the tenth time and I am still hooting with laughter. MY GOODNESS IT IS VERY, VERY NAUGHTY.

There’s one scene where I wax another actress . . . that is all that I am saying! I can see this tour is going to be a RIOT! With predominantly female audiences totally misbehaving whist hubby is at home! And why not!

The days are getting longer, January has gone and the future awaits . . . I am so excited, this is my favourite time of year, knowing the spring and summer is coming, what a fantastic feeling. In my head I have hit “delete” on January. OOOOOOOH! It was ruff! It has taken well over the month to get over the Norovirus and all its repercussions. I am feeling pretty much normal now but there are still waves of tiredness and instability. And where do my illness go when I get them? Straight to my joints. AND what does this mean? I start limping and this means numerous MRI scans, X-RAYS and physio . . . ALL JANUARY! I am radioactive!

That said I want to thank the specialist who have got me back on my feet because I had one hairraising week when I couldn’t walk. Richard Villar my hip surgeon, what a saint, thank you for the constant reassurance that all is OK and absolutely nothing is broken, torn, ripped or falling apart! Thank you to my physios Andrew Leisk, Andrew Buckley and Sandie Davies for getting me walking again and two miracle working acupuncturists Ann Quinn and James Hayllar for sticking so many pins in me and making me feel GREAT AGAIN!

AND thank you to my wonderful husband for massaging my aching limbs, you have a second career if you want it……as a masseur!

Now January can sod off!

Yesterday I had the most fantastic morning with Claire Balding recording BBC RADIO 4’s RAMBLINGS. (This is broadcast 28 Feb on BBC RADIO 4 at 3pm) Having arrived in my January “woe is me” state, Claire’s vibrant, intelligent and adorable openness had me walking the fastest I had in a month and gabbling, rambling, gossiping and laughing all morning. It was a tonic. We walked across a very flooded Croome Park near where I live. The sun was shining brilliantly yet there were large areas under huge ponds of water.

When we were not recording we were talking about shared friends and interests AND the Olympics! Even though I didn’t go to the Olympics last year, I was connected and informed by the fact my sister was part of the NHS terrorist response team, so I got to hear everything I was allowed to know from my sister. Claire and I had a lot to compare, with her “in the space” experience and my connection to my sister who spent four years on the team setting up the NHS response with all its practice runs in the event of an attack.

My sister said there wasn’t one terrorist incident at the Olympic village and Claire’s reply was that the police intelligence was so strong that they arrested all potential troublemakers well before the event. The Olympics has been such a massive project for my sister that she is now retiring and joining THE ROUND THE WORLD YATCH RACE. Talk about out of the frying pan into the fire! This is a woman who gets seasick on a car journey, but she has done her provisional training and has loved every minute. Come June she will set sale for a year!

My sister is 8 years older than me, so this gives me 8 years to decide how to top and tail my working life . . . how would I celebrate my working life? Do you know I have no idea, everything I thought I’d want to do, once I was middle aged, isn’t relevant any more. The world has changed so unrecognisably since I formed my dreams and desires decades ago, no matter what dream I come up with life moves so fast that everything needs updating and re-evaluating. OK so what do I want to be doing in 8 years time, here’s a kind of bucket list:

I’d like a brand new bikini friendly body, because I’ve never really had one. So, get the body confidence issues out of the way . . . I’d like to ski off piste somewhere near the Matterhorn! In a bikini! I’d like to sing at Carnegie Hall . . . with THE HUMANS! Then take over the world! Oh and also I’d like THE HUMANS to play ST.PAULS CATHEDRAL. In fact I’d like this to happen this year rather than in 8 years!

Once having physio, three years ago, one day after my hip replacement, I was in so much pain I passed out and I had this vision that I was starring in a TV medical drama in New York, I’d like this vision to come true, because ironically in it I was in my 60s!

Have fantastic holidays. I usually only get one every four or six years but in 8yrs time I want at least four a year . . . travelling the west coast of America, India, Peru and Old Tibet, Easter Island and THE MOON! (in my dreams) Be on the mission to MARS. Discover a palatable and tangible truth about why we are born, our souls and eternity that translates to all living beings whatever their religion. HEAVY! Be in a hot tub with Bowie, Steve Carell, Will Farell, Matt Bellamy, Robert Downey Jnr . . . NAAAA this is never going to happen!!!!!

Write the best series of horror novels of all time……..oh yes! This is my favourite! I need to think more seriously about this because having just come up with the last nine sentences it is clear I have not really made any plans for my future. I bet this is an age thing, the future could be bleak if you don’t wrap it in the protection of your personal desires and dreams!

Thank you to everyone for supporting SENSATIONAL, the YOU-TUBE video hits keep growing and growing. Dean Stockings put a montage together for YouTube so the track could be enjoyed by everyone in its entirety. I was slightly horrified when Popjustice talked about it as a come back video. This was never intended. I only found out the track was being used by WeightWatchers on Christmas Eve, so no time was available to shoot a new video (and the norovirus hit me Christmas day) but this might be rectified!!!!!!!!

Humans 3 is now mixed and it is the most delicious album with fantastic songs, poppy, groovy, rocky and lush! Dates are going in for the TOYAH AUTUMN TOUR, so all is on track and all is good!

HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES opens on the 5th MARCH and I am looking forward to laughing my way through spring!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOTS OF LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXX


MARCH 2013

Hello and welcome to my update!

Rehearsals for HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES have been a fantastic learning curve. This show is a three hander and we never leave the stage. Apart for two very quick costume changes in the wings.

This is quite a challenge for me as I tend to drink a pint of water every hour and therefore I suffer the biological consequences because of it, but not with this show . . . my water habit will have to be subdued somewhat for the next ten weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!

On asking the question in rehearsals . . . “when do you get to drink water in each act?” the answer was ‘never’ unless you pop your head around a stage flat which I cannot see will be possible. As a singer I am used to drinking more water than usual to maintain good vocal chord health, hydration being one of the most important things for the voice and good brain activity. Then I asked “what if one of us needs the loo?” to which I got a sympathetic rhetorical hands in the air . . . meaning . . . no chance!

Having run the play a few times now in rehearsals I think I’m going to be fine, the acts go so quickly there is no sense of time at all, in fact each act seems to disappear in minutes because there is so much to think about. Apart from being very nervous about first night I am confident I am ready and I am also confident that the show is going to be hysterical. There are so many ‘moments’ where I think the audience is just going to catch fire, some very funny things take place.

This show has given me some rewarding challenges. It is the kind of script where listening is 50% of the preparation to the actually speaking of the lines, with just the three of us we are all responsible for steering the subjects and comedy in quite broad sweeps. So this role isn’t just about learning my lines, it is evident we all need to know each others lines too, because we each set up the others jokes and there’s 216 pages!

I cannot say too much with out giving the comedy away, which would be a spoiler but we all play 6 characters each (as well as playing ourselves), who find themselves in ironic but very real situations. There are two common themes in the show that are completely alien to me, the first being childbirth and the second being teenagers.

Somehow I’ve managed to bypass both experiences in my life. This has led to many educational discussions from my fellow actresses and the director! Sometimes it has felt like I am a visitor to earth being warned about both! The most surprising revelation to me is that I have managed to avoid contact with both subjects for the majority of my adult life. I’ve been too busy working, travelling, reading science fiction and horror, now I’m paying the price. The majority of the population have a family life!

It has been no secret I’ve been poorly since Christmas day. It now appears I have a long-term virus rather than an injury. I think the effects of the virus are going to be with me until June, having done my research on the subject. Rather bizarrely I know four other people with the same symptoms, they all live locally and they all got ill at Christmas.

My poor hubby has developed it. My local physiotherapist and our best friend have had the symptoms since Christmas AND IT IS NASTY! About every fifteen minutes I feel as though I have been hit with a hammer in my knees, my back, my shoulders or my hips. The pain doesn’t last, it migrates quickly around my body, as my tendons and muscles spasm. Weight loss is the main concern, I’ve dropped about a stone and lost muscle tone, but I am just about back on my feet. This is mainly due to the fact I went back to work and didn’t stay home feeling sorry for myself, but there was one very hair-raising day when the whole HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES team and I had to decide if I was well enough to continue! My recovery has been noticeably quick; I’m back at about 85% and getting better every day.

There have been three turning points that really helped me keep going, the first being the cast and production team have done everything possible to support me through this peculiar virus, the second is I have had daily physio at THE BROMLEY SPORTS INJURY CENTRE to rebuild the shocking muscle loss that’s happened in the last six weeks and thirdly I’ve come across at least 4 other people with the same symptoms which psychologically has really helped me place this experience in the mind and the nervous system, rather than constantly worrying that every bone in my body was breaking . . . its like a demolition party is taking place inside me!

But I am getting there and loving being a part of this show and I am so grateful I have it because this tour will cure me! Eleven weeks on the road are ahead of me. My car is crammed with clothes, food, maps, paper work. I could survive anything, my packing regime is so well honed! My main priority is I don’t want to carry my home on my back, lugging tons of unneeded items in and out of theatres, but instead only taking what I need from the car each night . . . this is so different to touring a band!

On top of the show there is a lot of daily press, as there are 67 venues to cover. Next Monday I am recording an interview for BBC RADIO 2’s Steve Wright Show. Then I have the Wright Stuff and much more! The dominating question I am getting asked is “are men welcome?” well of course yes, as long as the man in attendance likes women! Because this is all about women, it is not political and I’d say it isn’t about feminism but it certainly celebrates the lives and nuances of women! Everyone is welcome!

I hope you get to see it and I will keep you informed of all news coming in about the summer and autumn shows too…. Make sure you are all signed up to the new BREAKING THROUGH mailing list news-letter alongside checking the website, facebook and twitter.

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXX


APRIL 2013

HELLO THERE!

My house is rocking with the company of HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES, who are all behaving impeccably I must say. All 8 of them.

As we are in Wolverhampton for two nights I am able to have the team over for lunch. I don't have time to cook so we are about to tuck into local fish n' chips followed by tons of ice cream! There may be only three of us on stage but there's also the sound, lighting, costumes and some of their family members too. Robert is currently doing what he loves best and is giving the entire team a guided tour of the house . . . including the history of certain pieces of furniture, certain paintings, certain rooms . . . so I know I have long enough to write this blog! Then I will go and save the team from information overload, but from what I can hear they're loving the history!

The Hormonal Housewives tour is fantastic. It's incredibly energising. To be performing to a sea of smiling, happy people who laugh their rocks off is total bliss. AND I'm loving the one nights in each town. Every morning setting off to a new town and a new venue is surprisingly exciting. I think we were in Crawley when her microphone broke last and Julie had to exit the stage to get a new mic pack. This normally would have happened quite quickly but as Sarah–Jane Buckley and myself entertained the audience with a bit of improv I saw in the wings the layers Julie had on . . . her track suit, her finale Cher outfit and dare I say . . . a spanx!!!!!!!!!!!!

WONDERFULLY inconvenient for the sound man, who had to get right in there to get to her mic pack. Personally I feel this attempt at changing a women's microphone should have taken place on stage in front of the audience because every women in the auditorium, including me, would have sympathised with how we all tend to over dress to impress!!!!!!! It was like watching a ferret (the sound man) getting trapped in Houdini's straightjacket.

I haven't escaped unintended adventures either. My particular talent apparently is to say a line completely back to front and not notice, which has both Julie and SJ in hysterics. I think one particularly good one was " She's all Knickers and no fur coat," it got such a huge laugh I should have kept it in! The audiences have been fantastic, an absolute joy and the tour is selling out fast . . . and it is going fast too! Each week seems like a day, each show feels like five minutes!

I've kind of wiped from my memory having to sleep on the M23 on the 11th March. The snow was coming down thick and fast. Having left London at 3pm for Brighton, I thought all would be fine, then I hit the M23 and realised there was going to be a massive problem. Ironically I got a text from Nigel Glockler whose wife was coming to see the show that night and I warned him I was stuck in the snow. He texted back . . . so was he . . . with other members of Saxon, en route from rehearsals up north . . . and . . . he was about 500 yards ahead of me on the M23.

This proved to be a major comfort for me, because Nigel kept in touch all night and I never felt stranded but 14 hours later, having missed the show, I managed to get off the motorway and get to bed back in London!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There were hundreds of us stranded and everyone behaved with acceptance and grace. I even saw a delivery man from a well known supermarket, open up the back of his truck and hand food out to some very hungry young women. Luckily I always travel with food and blankets so I was ok on that front.

It was very emotionally painful being stuck on the road knowing I was supposed to be on stage and I felt utterly mortified for my fellow actors and the audience, but the show went on and Louise, our understudy did a fabulous job. I have no intention of getting stranded again, come rain, come shine, floods or snow! I hope you get to see the show and have a fantastic time! There's only seven weeks left and I think it is all going to go in a blink of an eye!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOTS OF LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXX


MAY 2013

HELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOO!

OOOOOHHHHHH I am very excited. It is MAY!

This means long light days! YIPEE! It's the beginning of summer! YIPEE!!!! AND it's my birthday month, my husband's birthday month AND our wedding anniversary! YIPPEEEEEEEEEE!

We, THE FRIPPS, could say we have celebrated this by appearing on MR & MRS. ITV'S cult, yes, cult programme about spouses and their knowledge of each other. Back in the 70's I used to watch this programme with the entire Willcox family, totally astounded that any couple could actually get a question wrong. But fast forward to 2013 and the new series is clever, funny and in my opinion addictive. I won't say who won but the questions caught us both out with hilarious twists and turns.

This was Mr. Fripp's debut turn on a prime time ITV game show and he was fabulous. He even allowed the make-up department to airbrush foundation onto his face. Shock horror, I was really concerned about this and I was ready to jump in and stop anything that would make him regret being the centre of attention (because he doesn't like being the focus point) but hubby was fantastic and I believe he enjoyed the process.

He instinctively entered into the spirit of it all. The production company was so excited he was there. It was obvious there were a lot of Fripp fans working on the programme. It was such a good experience that it is possible we will be working together on TV in the future. We are beginning talks this summer about a show (and I don't mean fly on the wall reality) recorded from our home. So lets see what happens, but everyone agrees Mr. Fripp has a talent for quirky comedy and I have a talent for being quirky . . . THE FRIPPS the next chapter awaits . . . it might mean I see more of him too!

HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES has been great! It still goes from strength to strength, with sell out shows, great reviews and it remains lots of fun. I have loved this way of touring, a different venue every night. It suits my temperament, as someone who adores constant change!

As I write this we are in our last three weeks of our 12 week tour. It has been fantastic being on stage, acting again and I am certainly up for more touring shows in the future. It's given me the bug.Comedy is such a wonderful way to go to work and it is a brilliant medium to learn about. I don't know how stand up comics do it. I certainly would never ever attempt stand up, far too scary, but to have the right script for the right audience has been a total blessing.

So onwards and upwards, as of May the 27th it's back to my other day job, being a singer! The autumn tour is shaping up and we should be announcing the dates any day now. London, Manchester and Bristol are solid, we are now awaiting confirmation on a few other dates before we announce. We have decided to keep it selective and to main venues as I have a TV series to shoot in the autumn, but there will be enough venues for everyone to reach and to follow us around the country. The tour set will include songs from LOVE IS THE LAW, CRIMSON QUEEN, ANTHEM, CHANGELING and SHEEP FARMING, in that order of priority.

Next year I might tour CRIMSON QUEEN, in it's own right, especially if I can pin SIMON DARLOW down to record the follow up and to come and do some dates too. CQ is a fantastic album and it has had such a great response in the industry I'd like to give it the time it deserves. But this isn't my priority just yet.

Autumn is the priority just now. Once the HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES tour ends I can start intensive physio to regain my muscle strength after what has been one of the worst illness of my life. I am the other side now but the virus (still unknown) has taken quite a toll on me. It has worked its way through every joint, causing imflamation and severe pain. But as my specialist said " you are the healthiest 54 year old I have seen, there is nothing wrong with you, other than a virus has hit your nervous system, so that's the good news!"

Last week I had a large shot of steroids into my backside and today I feel like super women! I cannot start the physio, properly, until I am off the road because the virus has conditioned my nerves to react as if I have broken a bone if I over stress a joint. The result being I am incapacitated for a few days after physio, but I can re-condition this out of my muscles once I have the space for recovery time. I would like to thank everyone who has come to see HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES. Thank you for your support and the joy of your laughter. AND a massive thank you to the cast, crew and production team who have supported me through this damned illness and made it possible for me to keep working.

AND a massive THANK YOU to my wonderful agents who have been there for me all the way. Lastly, THANK YOU to the production team of MR.& MRS who looked after me brilliantly too! THANK YOU. YOU HAVE BEEN ANGELS AT MY SIDE! Now let the summer start! I can't wait.

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD.

LOTS OF LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXX


JUNE 2013


HELLO THERE!

Here I am learning the lyrics to SENSATIONAL, which is going into the new TOYAH set this year. AND can I remember them?!!!!!!!

I wrote them but they wont go into my head. Having just learned 216 pages of dialogue for Hormonal Housewives, effortlessly, why are song lyrics so notoriously difficult to learn? But I will persevere; firstly I have to and secondly after two weeks solidly addressing this, the damned things have got to stick somewhere to the walls of my head.

Life swings like a pendulum between glorious creativity and absurd normality. This morning at 8am I dragged my husband kicking and screaming to the doctors and made my husband have every 'ill' he constantly complains about looked at by a professional rather than me. For the past four years I have had to guess diagnose his ill's from trawling through the reams of self diagnosis on the internet. Now I've had enough!

Why are men so bad at going to the doctors? Why do men think their partners, spouses and friends are better at diagnosing than a professional? The doctor completely ignored me as I listed all Roberts many neglected ailments. I guess his wife has the same trouble with him, but I kept on listing them until he realized I was determined the NHS was going to treat my hubby and not me. As we came away I felt like the mean schoolteacher having made the naughty pupil eat lumpy blancmange. Now I am free of the touring schedule of Hormonal Housewives I am back in the flow of TOYAH LIFE.

Firstly I am back to full health, which is a huge relief, I must never get to a serious point of exhaustion again. That said I start training in Cambridge this week, along side a few Olympians at a center that specializes in ALTER G rehabilitation ……anti-gravity training. There will be a lot pictures twittered once I am in my full blow up suit on the treadmill!

Now time is mine again there's the odd million meetings with TV, film, stage and record companies. VINTAGE TV are making an hour special with Robert and myself, as well as a series I have proposed about women in music, plus TOYAH'S CHRISTMAS and there will be some live music filming of the TOYAH BAND all happening in the next three months, before the autumn tour kicks off. The autumn tour will be fun, because it will pull together a real journey in my life, from SHEEP FARMING to LOVE IS THE LAW to IN THE COURT OF THE CRIMSON QUEEN. Make the most of seeing this tour because it will be the last one where we feature an album for a while, in chronological order of release.

There's a lot of new stuff going on and CRIMSON QUEEN for me would be far more fun to put live than MINX, that said I am going to talk to SIMON DARLOW about doing some live shows of the songs we have written together, believe me the new stuff we have done already is really kicking, so undoubtedly MINX stuff will slot in somewhere. The last four months have been an incredible journey for me. I have come out of it stronger and I hope a whole lot wiser. There have been some very funny synchronicities along the way.

In March, after the show in Folkestone, I needed a physio on a Sunday in London. Googling for a physio who worked on Sunday I found Cherie who worked at a gym around the corner from me. She had a free appointment. Cherie was great, in fact I now see her regularly. But . . . this is a first of many synchronicities . . . she is from Seattle. She went out with Robert's drummer in King Crimson 20 years ago when she was a teenager. Her husband is a renowned music producer and she knows all Bill Rieflin's friends.

At this time my knees where being problematic (nothing serious) but thanks to the viral infection I was getting over, my knees where painful and she recommended I see a surgeon in the future who is specializing in a new technique…….. she handed me his name, it is the little brother of my lifetime friends from school, Bina and Gita. I had no idea he had become one of the UK's leading pioneers in knee surgery, as I hadn't seen him for 40 years.

Then a short time later I was walking towards my car in the West End and someone was calling my name, so I stopped and said hello, not knowing who they were and it was Bina and Gita's younger sister Sheila, who again I hadn't seen for 40 years and people can really change in 40 years, so I was forgiven for not knowing her immediately. I love it when time and the universe makes connections on your behalf, which I believe it does. So this month I am seeing as many of my friends as possible, because for the past nine months I have been too busy to have a social life and I miss all my friends.

See you all soon, hopefully, either at one of the summer festivals but certainly for the LOVE IS THE LAW AUTUMN TOUR. All of the tour dates are on my GIGS page and there's a new live track of the month there too.

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXX


JULY 2013

Hello there!

I cannot believe it but I have just turned down a request to do the next series of Splash. The "learn to high dive" programme where swimming costumes are compulsory no matter how old you are.

I said to my agent "look I am 55, it should be law for someone with a body like mine not to be seen in public in anything other than a full body suit. And as for diving off 60ft boards, yes I can just see the injuries I could do myself". I was thrilled to be asked but they have left it 30 years too late!

All last week Bill Rieflin (THE HUMANS) rested up at our home before playing at Glastonbury with Peter Buck and Robyn Hitchcock. We spoiled him rotten! Firstly we took him for high tea at Buckland Manor in the Cotswolds. Mr. skinny Rieflin tucked into clotted cream and scones, then we took him home, after a walk around the Cotswold town of Broadway where he tried on tweed jackets, and we fed him again! Then the following day we took him to The Bridge at Bidford for lunch followed by tea in Stratford, followed by supper.

Secretly, in the case of Bill Rieflin, I am a feeder. The joy I experience if he leaves our home after a few days with a muffin top peeping over his baggy trousers is immeasurable. He will not be too pleased with me for telling you all that but he is now en-route to Norway . . . so tough.

We had good HUMANS future proofing time and got a video idea underway and also the possibility of a live internet performance was explored, plus management because I am toooooo busy to manage this unruly band, it is like trying to herd cats . . . One morning Bill returned to our house after popping to the shops and was thrilled that our local Asda plays Robbie Williams "Candy" in rotation. Bill played drums on the album. Robert and I explained we always stop our shopping to dance in the ailes when it comes on.

My training is going well and I am getting stronger all the time. It will take all year to regain my full strength but I am moving in the right direction. I'm a little addicted to the ALTER G running machine, it gives you 30per cent gravity, the same as walking on the moon, which allows me to run with out hurting myself. Believe it or not running is something I am not allowed to do unless I am on this machine.

The only problem is I am too small for the machines design. A rubber seal has to be fitted around your waist, this is then zipped into an air suit that surrounds the running platform, then air is pumped into the suit and it lifts you to 30per cent gravity. Because I am small the rubber seal isn't tight enough and the air escapes from around my waist making farting noises for 30 minutes, rather like air escaping from a balloon. I just turn to the other trainers and say "excuse me its my age."

The Guardian have just been on the phone wanting to talk about the V&A CLUB TO CATWALK exhibition which opens on the10th July. I'm only featured in a photograph, this is the THUNDER IN THE MOUNTAINS single cover.  But the Guardian have been sent pics of me in a Melissa Caplin outfit I donated to the Sheffield Rock Museum in 1987, how they got hold of that shot I do not know because I only wore this particular outfit once. It is a bright orange highway-mans coat with black abstracts painted on it . . . very day-glo.

I really have managed to cross the boundaries of quite a few music movements . . . punk, new wave, new romantic and gothic. The Guardian asked why everything was so inventive back then and my reply was "it was before the time of the consultancy firms, focus groups and PR companies predicting future colour schemes, fashion and trends 2 years ahead of the time. Everything was real back then." I've agreed to be involved with a talk about 80's fashion on the 8th November at the V&A, the night before we play ISLINGTON O2. They have asked I bring my collection of stage costumes along form this period. I have to say I will be so proud to see them in the middle of the V&A!

Presently I am reading PROOF OF HEAVEN by DR. EBEN ALEXANDER. It is a best seller in New York and my hair dresser Mark recommended it to me, having lost his father not too long ago this book has given him great comfort. For me I have no doubt my mother is still by my side, my father I cannot feel, he has truly flown away, but mum is communicative, mischievous and constantly present. Its funny death dosen't scare me but others deaths do. What I mean by this I am scared of loosing my friends, my husband, any more family, YET, I believe in eternity.

So I am reading this book to see if it helps me deal with the loss of friends. And low and behold in chapter 9 the author describes something I experienced when I was 14yrs old. In the exact detail I have described my experience in my autobiography LIVING OUT LOUD when I used to dream of a TALL WHITE taking me by the hand and out into the universe to meet the "sphere beings" . . . it's a fascinating read . . .

Going back to Bill, he was with us when our garden was vandalised. At 10pm there was a loud knock at our front door and three police people came in saying " we believe Toyah Willcox might be the target of intruders." Boy! This was freaky. So they all run out into the garden to discover the mess the intruders had left behind. Out statue RITES OF SPRING made by the sculptress Althea Wynne was smashed as were stone benches. The real sadness of this damage is Althea was killed last year when a truck drove into her car. We can never replace the sculpture, the memory nor the presence of Althea, and that is heartbreaking.

The police were fantastic, so where our neighbours who reported it. The culprits where caught and admitted to the damage. They are in their late teens. That night they were so drunk that one threw up in the police car. I would just like to point out that on Saturday at Glastonbury . . . quote "2.54 million tuned into see the Rolling stones and 2.78 million watched Die Hard on BBC1". When I played Drury Lane, live on BBC2 Christmas Eve 1981 . . . I had 12 million viewers. Just an historical fact. But who cares I am just a female.

BUT I AM GOING TO BE LOUD, PROUD AND HEARD

I HOPE YOU DO THE SAME

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXX


AUGUST 2013

HELLO THERE!

About a month ago hubby and I looked around our home and realised we had boxed up belongings stashed away from two house moves . . . 14 years ago to be exact.

This “stuff’ was taking up vital room. It is quite breathtaking that two people need so much space. We need space for our eclectic tastes, space for our physical needs (I am always exercising) (he is always reading), space for the things we love AND it has dawned on us space for the things we no longer want to look at. In my reluctance to face the weeks of unpacking ahead of us in order to acquire more space I came up with a pretty effective and basic solution . . .

“IF WHAT WE SET OUR EYES ON DOESN’T BRING US JOY AND WE HAVE LIVED WITH OUT IT FOR MORE THAN 5 YEARS . . . IT GOES!” This proved itself a miraculous solution. It took away the youthful burden that everything you have ever touched, or set eyes on in your entire life is a vital ingredient to happiness and must be carried upon your back like a snails shell, under the belief it will enrich your life forever. In our case the snail’s shell was about a hundred stacked cardboard boxes.

Within a few weeks of daily unpacking “stuff”, it was no longer stuff but GONE! Either escorted to the nearest charity shop, distributed around family and friends or hygienically binned! Cripes! I even found boxes of used envelopes, old scraps of discarded lyrics in the sackful, old make up, boxes of socks, boxes of wrapping paper, boxes of music magazines from the 1970’s. There were some treasures, for example an incredibly tasteful amount of vinyl. From Velvet Undergound to Bowie to Iggy to PERE UBU to all my first test pressings. Original 80s couture and photographs behind the scenes that had completely slipped my memory. There was some joy to be found. Then it occurred to me what if I addressed life with the same philosophy

“IF WHAT WE SET OUR EYES ON DOESN’T BRING US JOY AND WE HAVE LIVED WITH OUT IT FOR MORE THAN 5 YEARS . . . IT GOES!” On the surface this could be a callous and cruel way of dealing with people and things but if approached in an ethical rather than hedonistic way I have found it completely liberating. Firstly this law doesn’t apply to people. Time moves so quickly at my age, five years now feels like a year. But the principle “ If something doesn’t bring you joy . . . it goes”, is fantastically freeing with many other cases and issues.

At the age of 55 time is now defined, it is pretty obvious how much I have left, its limitations are clear, so do I want to put up with shit. No. Do I want to carry the burden of other peoples agenda’s BLAH BLAH BLAH. NO! Like all people my age I have worked hard. Time is now about joy. We must stop buying into the negativity of “empty nesting, down-sizing, ill-health, no-future, over weight, senility, incontinence . . . BLAH BLAH BLAH” and find JOY. Why dosent the world of commerce sell joy?

I am coming at this from a basic animal experience. Look at the pets you live with. All they require is joy. They don’t require hard sell, fear motivated, controlling advertising and social networking that is basically a way of us all being tagged. They just require joy . . . food, the security of being loved, a warm bed and the occasional sexual experience.

Joy is simple, uncomplicated and possible to attain. It has taken me bloody decades to have this insight! Mainly because school and upbringing knocked the principles of joy out of my system, but one can always call it back!

So how has this worked so far . . .

1. I’ve turned down a lot of work, really bad substandard stuff.

2. Turned down newspaper requests because I can no longer stomach the dishonesty that comes back in the printed word.

3. I start my day with a TED lecture . .. brain food.

4. I am training with the best in the world because I deserve the best and at 55 you are not too over the hill to be physically adventurous.

5. I find two hours in the day to read . .. presently . . . HIGH CONCEPT…DON SIMPSON AND THE HOLLYWOOD CULTURE OF EXCESS.

6. Do rather than just talk about. Ie: pick up a new skill and learn . . . more on this in six months time.

7. Clear clutter.

8. Recognise and make transparent other people's agendas. This is all around us. And don’t be willing to be controlled by them.

9. Have time for fun. In my case my work is constant fun but also I’m making time for play.

10. Don’t be afraid to tell people how much you love them. I have friends who hate this but for F---‘s Sake once they are gone you cant tell them! So make ‘em take it on the chin!

So to conclude JULY has been quite wonderful.

The opening of the V&A’S FROM CLUB TO CATWALK was a wonderful night. Steve Strange was on great form as were many others. The DURAN’S where milling around with the Spandau’s and the fashion on display was inventive, fantastic and fresh. I felt so proud especially as I had no idea one of my costumes was to be exhibited next to ADAM ANT! Wow that brought back happy joyful memories.

Every minute of every day is filled because I am training at PERFORM ST. GEORGES PARK. I am taking every opportunity to get to maximum strength and fitness. Even though I only train for two hours a day it also means four hours travelling but it is so worth it and I am loving it, it is tough and I love that. ST. GEORGES is a very eventful place, last week I was circuit training in the gym with OLLY MURS and NICK GRIMSHAW presenting RADIO 1 from the football pitch below, which was a really fun good natured event with invited fans watching on.

Then the next day I ended up in the pool with the MONACO football team . . . nice! And I still managed to get down to London to have fun with Cilla Black over supper. What a role model, she looks wonderful, she is in amazing shape and what a wicked sense of humour . . . age is just a number . . . life is for living no matter what and where you are . . . remember . . .

JOY IS OUR NATURAL STATE AND DON’T LET ANYONE CONTROL YOU BY SAYING IT ISNT! Today I am learning the set for ISLE OF WIGHT, the set list for the autumn tour is well underway and THE HUMANS . . . well suddenly there is label interest. So more on that soon!

BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXX


SEPTEMBER 2013

HELLO THERE!

Many times I am asked “Did you ever think you’d be doing what you are doing now when you where 19 years old?”

It’s one of those rather tedious repetitive questions that gets thrown at you, that makes you grit your teeth and try to answer in a civil tone, omitting the phrase “look you dumb arse, how the hell would I have known 36 years ago that the world would have a completely different landscape today . . . ddduuuuuhhhhhh!”

Yet here I am standing at Butlers Wharf London, where all those years ago I made the film JUBILEE, back then I was as poor as hell. I couldn’t buy food and used to walk home rain sodden because I couldn’t afford the travel fair. And 36 year ago Butlers Wharf was the waste ground Derek Jarman used as the back drop to his punk epic, Jubillee. It was an unwanted part of London but today it is a startlingly vibrant, beautiful and bustling community.

I’ve just found my sister in ST. KATHERINE’S DOCK where she has boarded her sailing yacht for the next 10 months. At the age of 63 she is embarking on the CLIPPER ROUND THE WORLD YACHT RACE. This is her dream, what she has worked hard for, for the past 45 years. A dream that entails crossing treacherous seas through unforgiving seasons, only being able to wash once a week and sharing a bunk (or hammock) with 21 other crew on a rota of four hours sleep, six hours crewing for the next 294 days.

In answer to the question “would I have guessed 36 years ago . . . ?” NO! I’d never have guessed what I’d be doing today. My sister Nicola Besag was the quietest member of the Willcox family. Nicola was the studious one who always played by the rules. She used to wait at the school gates to collect me from detention. She was the one summoned to explain my behaviour when I threw chairs out of the classroom window.

Nicola was shy and lacking in confidence then suddenly around 30 years old the Willcox gene kicked in and she became known for her ferocity, so much so when I was in hospital two weeks ago for a check up one of the nurses came up to me and said is Nicola Besag your sister? “Yes”, “Oh she was terrifying when I sat my exams with her.” NICE.

I told my sister this and she was very happy her reputation still resounds around the NHS. I once witnessed my sister hauling an abusive driver on the A40 out of his car and across his bonnet……so look out high seas you’ve got a challenge coming. I know she will be ok but in a diminishing family she will be missed beyond comparison. I might have mentioned this before but I was supposed to take the summer off . . . I have never been busier!

Every second has been filled with requests, demands, please would you’s and Oh while you are here . . . !!!!! Exaggeration not! This has easily been one of the busiest times of my life. Partly because next year has gone through the roof, the recession is definitely easing as band bookings are coming in every hour for 2014. There won’t be a tour as such next year, but rather we intend to work all year across the UK and parts of Europe too.

In the last two weeks two very nice movie roles have come in, purely low budget British projects, one is a SCI-FI . . . I’d say it was my very first sci-fi but back in ‘85 I did a small scene for a sci-fi, Lorca & The Outlaws (skip to 58 mins in) singing in a video sequence, “Lion of Symmetry” which I co-wrote with Genesis member Tony Banks.

Anyway I get a call from the British director asking if I’d consider a small cameo and the answer was YES PLEASE! The other role is for Tom Lawes who is a great film maker who lives barely 500 yards from my front door. Tom has been a keen supporter of my acting and music for a long time. He owns the Electric Cinema in Birmingham where he wants THE HUMANS to perform asap!

Robert and I are about to start filming for VINTAGE TV. This is a totally new departure for Robert. I’m not totally convinced he knows what to do in front of a camera but I do know he will be fantastic and I am there to guide him. In fact I think he is a talent yet to be discovered on the “talking head to camera” stage. He is a naturally funny raconteur. After this I want to encourage him into acting, I think he could fill Donald Pleasence’s shoes! Hubby has a natural menace about him.

For the festivals this year we were blessed with fantastic weather. I really loved JACK UP THE 80s, the audience where blissed out, super cool and happy. This mood seeped its way onto the stage, it felt like a festival should feel . . . total summer bliss. UPTON was the same, I was nervous playing home turf but it was a fantastic show. The band played so well at all the shows. I love it when the hair stands up on the back of my neck, this is usually when wongy does a blinding solo or Alan Dale does an unexpected drum fill which makes us all smile with surprise, appreciation and acknowledgement. The backstages at all the festivals where quite an experience this year. Only Tatton Park was calm and collected.

At the ISLE OF WHITE I dressed and put my make up on in the bus with very friendly people roaming in and out for conversations. It felt like the early days when all convention of artist/audience didn’t exist and instead there was a free for all and once you made it to the stage you had more space! If the audience only knew, no point being modest in these conditions, you just have to strip off ☺

In a couple of weeks we start rehearsing for THE LOVE IS THE LAW TOUR. Wongoose has been arranging the songs, I’ve been planning the costume with Sean Chapman and Dean Stockings is planning a new shoot around his commitments to Boy George.

It’s a busy year about to get busier! More news on the tour in the October web letter, but I will say we are all excited!

But now, I need to go because there’s a record label to talk to who wants HUMANS 3. Fingers crossed . . . a Christmas release . . . maybe?

BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD (this will be in the tour set by the way)

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXX


OCTOBER 2013

YIPEEEE IT’S SHOW TIME!

It is a matter of days now until the first LOVE IS THE LAW show.

Interestingly I already know the songs inside out. Whereas The Changeling took months to learn, Love Is The Law is still firmly in my head from 1983 . . . one of the happiest and most fulfilling years of my life.

I love this album. I love the way we wrote it, Joel, Simon and myself setting up a studio in my house in Finchley and writing all day before a car would take me to the Mermaid Theatre to perform in the evening in Trafford Tanzi. Then after the show another car would collect me and take me to the Marquee Studios to record what we had written earlier. My voice was strong and well rounded from the evening show. We would often record well into the dawn with me placing main vocals at 2,3,4 in the morning before I would finally flag, order a pizza and drift happily home to start all over again.

It was manic, high energy, joyous and unstoppable. This album represents not only my happiest moments but also the life of The Angels And Demons and the few hundred strong who camped outside the theatre and those who followed us to the Marquee. It was like a small encampment in the middle of London, a true Toyah Army who had such a zest for life. I’d come to the stage door in the interval of the show and hear the latest goings on, hear the latest gossip and witness strong bonds growing between certain individuals.

I’d also hear about arrests, drunken moments, lost possessions and broken hearts but it all seem to blend, mend and move on to the next adventure quite quickly. This is how the title track LOVE IS THE LAW came about. We invited those who followed us to the Marquee into the studio around 2am one morning and we all stood around the microphones singing the chorus.

It was hysterical to start with because it was the first time most of the gang had been in front of a microphone but after one or two takes it all started to fall into place, thus the title track evolved. It was a hot spring and even hotter summer, just perfect! Out of all my albums this is really the only one I return to, to listen to for pleasure and to touch those incredible memories. I have the same feeling when I hear Crimson Queen or any of the Humans albums . . . just connection to happiness.

Thus when I compiled the set list for the tour and started to learn the new additions . . . there was nothing to learn . . . it was already safely docked in my memory banks.This is a space ship of an album for me because it takes me out there whenever I climb aboard!

This September has been great, in fact 2013 is just getting better and better. Bill Rieflin came to stay. We took him to his first British Fete where we threw wet sponges at our best friend and had cream tea . . . as only the Brits can do. We met up with Peter Buck in London and over an excellent meal on St.Martin’s Lane came to the conclusion that the HUMANS, Peter Buck, Bill, Fripp should all tour together, in small US rock clubs next spring.

About two months ago I had a brainwave to do with my husband. Mr. Fripp vowed never to perform live again about four years ago. One morning whilst driving to a meeting I had an idea and I called Frippy . . . ”What would it take for you to play again live?” “I need to trust everyone around me, that photos won't be taken, that I am left alone to just play!” “Who would make that possible?” I said “I have no idea”, Frippy replied. “BILL. Make Bill your Musical Director! No one F---s with Bill!”

Then I took Frippy with me to perform at St. Georges Park where I am training weekly and they really sorted him out. Mr. Fripp soon realised his fears and quirks are suffered by almost everyone under pressure to perform and within 24 hours he was putting the new King Crimson together. This is all very good for the HUMANS as it means in 2014 Bill will be mainly based in the UK . . . YERRRRRRRRRR . . . we will be playing! But I have to get through the rest of this year first.

I’ve just guest presented on BBC RADIO 4’s RAMBLINGS . . . which I loved! Walking is my first real pleasure, quickly followed by eating. So to be asked to walk and explore someone else’s thoughts was exhilarating whist the microphone was dangled like a carrot in front of us, our producer walking so quickly I almost had to run to keep up! Loved it!

QUADROPHENIA had a screening at the Cine Lumiere in Kensington with myself, Phil Davis, Mark Wingett, Franc Roddam and Don Boyd present. The audience were mainly French and they were experiencing the film for the first time and it went down a storm, they loved it. I loved seeing so many of the team back together again.

The organiser said often at screenings there is some sense of tension between cast and production but with us it was like witnessing a happy family reunion as we all pulled our tables together in the green room and ate before the screening. Franc Roddam told fantastic and cruel stories of being axed from major films and bullied by film execs, it made me happy to be in the safe little world of Toyahdom.  Don Boyd also produced me in The Tempest so there will hopefully be a screening of that to come as well as a film I made in 1993 called Anchoress, which is stunning and one of my best pieces of acting. Pete Postlethwaite played my husband.

In the middle of the up coming tour I have a cameo in a film, just before we play London, then later this year I have a cameo in a sci-fi. I’ve got to cram a lot in the remaining three months of 2013. 2014 is dominating a lot of my time presently. I have never known a year shape up the way next year is shaping up. It is very comforting but it is also like being told when a tidal wave will happen and you just have to wait for it and be prepared. I hope you get to see the tour. It will be fun as usual and all the TOYAH CLASSICS will be played. There’s four songs in the set that haven’t been played for 30 years!

There’s also a stunning new t-shirt & poster for sale with specially shot BRAND NEW images.

I HOPE TO SEE YOU OUT THERE!

BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXX


NOVEMBER 2013

HELLO THERE !

Thank you to everyone who has supported the LOVE IS THE LAW TOUR. It has been a resounding success. The overall consensus being that the set list has been the best ever.

This weekend we announce the dates so far for 2014. As you will see the TOYAH band are working all year round, more shows are going in daily and a fun lot of festivals too! The 2014 twelve month tour will consist of LOVE IS THE LAW material alongside CRIMSON QUEEN, a marriage of the two albums plus all the TOYAH hits. We are also adding some acoustic shows, which will be announced soon.

Personally I have loved this year’s tour, the songs have been fantastic to revisit. Broken Diamonds, The Vow, Be Proud Be Loud Be Heard, Love Is The Law and Dreamscape have felt fresh and inspiring to sing. Mr. Wong says he found it unsettling to start the show with Love Is The Law but I always like to go head first into a new adventure and it’s great opening a show with a song that isn’t a predictable show opener.

The audiences on this tour have been very interesting, very different. I had no idea that LITL has such a diverse audience, especially BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD getting a huge reaction every time we play it. It is as if LITL has brought a new dimension into the shows through the audience. Looking out and seeing a more Goth crowd.

One of the reasons we have kept the shows spread out is I have to be able to sing a good octave higher than normal. To give THE VOW and DREAMSCAPE full vocal justice these songs need a well rested voice, so by spacing the shows I have been able to move my vocal range right back to the range I had in the 1980’s . . . unbelievably high! I even have to change my posture to hit some of those phrases . . . no slouching on this tour!

I cannot fathom why my life is so bloody busy! It is endless. After Southampton I had a day on a movie and by the Sunday I was ready to drop, having been in Barcelona and Gibraltar during the week but, no rest for the wicked, I had to write the links for a show I am recording for VINTAGE TV.

I cannot wait for that Christmas lull when everyone disappears to party and eat, at least I know I should have two quiet-ish weeks . . . that will be a first this year. In the meantime I am guesting on THE BLOCKHEADS new video, shooting two shows for Vintage TV, writing alongside Simon Darlow for ROCKCHOIR and starting CRIMSON QUEEN 2, popping over to Seattle to help plan THE HUMANS spring west coast tour and I am training for a major project . . . YIKES!

In between all this fun and kafuffle I have been on hand to look after hubby who has had two successful cataract operations. He now can see clearly for the first time in years. His sight was becoming challenging for all who know him. For example three weeks ago we sent thank you cards out to friends, one to Steven Wilson for sitting us in the family box at the Albert Hall for his concert and another card to a close friend in LA. Robert managed to put the wrong cards in the wrong envelopes, thus confusion all round. But the real challenge was Robert had become so blind he started to introduce me to complete strangers he thought he recognised in public . . . no excuses now!

We were both summoned to the vet last week. Little WillyFred, the most adored white rabbit in the world has a persistent and untreatable dental problem. Every month he has to have his teeth filed under anesthetic and this last time the vet noticed he had actually lost a back tooth. So we were told that the vet isn’t prepared to keep him going, eventually he will need to be put down. This is so distressful, WillyFred is the happiest, fattest most playful little soul, so we are spoiling him rotten knowing he is on borrowed time, he was 6 years old last week.

As I mentioned I was in Barcelona two weeks ago. My flight was due to take off from Heathrow as the super storm struck the south of England. Boy what timing! I had a window of two hours to board the P&O Oceana in the port of Barcelona before it left got Gibraltar or I would be stranded. My flight took off and hour and a half late …….. but I made it! Just!

As I arrived at the port I got a text from my friend the comedian Martin Gold, who played my brother in 2000 panto in Stockport . . . ”are you boarding the Oceana?” he asked. “Yes! How do you know?” “I’m sitting in the bar of the neighbouring ship!” It is a small world. I was on the Oceana with the HERE AND NOW BAND, doing two shows in the main theatre. I loved it! We had so much fun. But I wish the band told me that the lead guitarist is called Stellios NOT STAVROS! After a three-hour rehearsal and two shows I finally learned I had been calling him the wrong name all day! He took it well. I am an idiot! Shan was in the band, our old drummer, and he was giggling away every time I said “ Thank you Stavros that was great . . . ”

I hear from Davie Dreamscape, he who does a fantastic job of catching Toyah items I haven’t seen or even heard of on the Dreamscape website, is creating a TOYAH FANZINE, in the true tradition of informative fanzines. He has interviewed Steve Bray who drummed on Blue Meaning. Davie has also interviewed Chris Limb who ran the fan club / Tellurian. My costumes went with me for my discussion at THE V&A on 1980s style trends. It has been thrilling to be involved in this exhibition. I wish my parents had lived to see this! It was an excellent evening with Caryn Franklin and Karen Binns.

This tour has included all my favourite venues, perfect. I thank everyone who has made it happen . . . FLAG PROMOTIONS have been fab and I look forward to working with them again, the band have been stunning and the team Paul, Kate and Claire have been absolute rocks! THANK YOU!

Next Up CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE TOYAH

BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD


DECEMBER 2013

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW! 2013 has been one hell of a year, utterly life changing, utterly fantastic!

It has been really great finishing the tour in London, with a stunning show and a wonderful crowd at the O2 Islington. Thank you everyone. With the success of this tour behind me and the success of the spring tour of HORMONAL HOUSWIVES I feel 2013 has been a great year, but even greater because I have learned so much in the process.

Life is about living your dreams, standing strong in the belief you deserve to achieve your dreams and not giving in to obstacles no matter your age . . . LIFE IS FOR LIVING AND IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO START. 2014 looks crazy already. We have some really lovely shows coming up.The TOYAH band are out in force as of February . . . and I have a TV show to do before we hit the road.

In 2014 I am touring two shows . . . TOYAH THE BAND doing CRIMSON QUEEN/GREATEST HITS and TOYAH ACOUSTIC! The band show is loud and rocking and the acoustic show will be more dancey, personal, full of stories and images as I will be using a cinema screen.

Currently I am in Seattle with my writing partner Bill Rieflin, we have some planning to do for the west coast tour of THE HUMANS in April. Having started December with a head cold, caught off my husband who in turn caught it off a member of KING CRIMSON at a rehearsal . . . really there is no excuse, a cold is a bloody inconvenience whoever gave it to you. But I don’t care because I am in one of my favourite cities in the world Seattle to celebrate an early Christmas with Bill Rieflin and his wife Frankie.

All sorts of adventures are planned. I have never been in America at Christmas so I am EXCITED! My stay won’t be too long as I have to get back for work, in fact as soon as I land back in blighty I have rehearsals for a new show . . . immediately as I step off the plane! THE HUMANS American tour dates are set, Bill and I need to just finalise a few things. It isn’t a huge tour as there will be so many of us, is in fact a circus of buddies hitting the road in April 2014. On the stage will be Wongoose, Bill, myself . . . then Robert Fripp, Peter Buck plus some others to be announced……there is one name being mentioned . . . let’s put it this way…if Bill pull’s this off . . . we will be making history . . . I’d say don’t hold your breath . . .but I’d also say . . . STRANGER THINGS HAVE HAPPENED.

We will of course be playing HUMANS 3 in its entirety. The USA is a long way to go to see us, so please do not fret as we intend to head to the UK in 2014. Already I am dealing with scripts for shoots in 2014. One is the female lead in a British film, which I have agreed to do as it puts me right out of the area people perceive me as belonging to. It is a period drama and one of the best scripts I have ever read . . . but I have promised the producer I will say no more!

The other film I have said yes to is a Sci-Fi, which will shoot in the summer. My highlights in November where playing Southampton, The Brooke . . . it was so brilliant a show my hair stood on end from beginning to end, I’d say one of the best shows of my life. Playing the O2 Islington is always a highlight. Do you know it is virtually impossible to play London these days, the venues are tough for new acts to get into but I am lucky, I have a great audience and I get the venue! We are all looking forward to the Jazz Café on the 29th March next year!

Another highlight was interviewing Gabrielle for VINTAGE TV LIVE SESSIONS. WOW what a fantastic lady. Gabrielle sang two songs live and then we talked. She was so warm and welcoming, very interesting and passionate about her work. What we had in common is we are lyricists rather than musicians so we really put our heads together and TALKED AND TALKED about that subject! And lastly the VICTORIA AND ALBERT MUSEUM TALK was a privilege to be part of. I was treated with respect and care, which kind of surprised me, but I was there being valued as someone who contributed and changed fashion in the 80s, who led the way for the likes of brilliant artists like GaGa and many more . . . thank you.

So my friends I wish you a . . .

HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM THE USA!

But I will be home for Christmas with my hubby!

BE PROUD BE LOUD BE HEARD FOR THE LAST TIME IN 2013!

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

SEE ALSO
The Toyah Blog Archive

TOYAH'S BLOG 2012

Read Toyah's blog on the Official Page HERE


JANUARY 2012

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!

I wasn’t expecting December to be fun but it has been one hell of a fun month!

Accidentally, (really!), I bought a cast member a fart machine (Bob Golding) thinking he’d take it home to his children to play with and he then wreaked havoc with it . . . on stage! I had to threaten to kill him (not really) before it was removed from behind the scenery of the dwarfs’ diamond mine where it had been used every time a dwarf moved!!

The panto has been close to sublime. I adore working with Paul Hendy’s scripts and his production company Evolution, run by Paul’s wife Emily Wood who I’ve known since she was about 8 and once when I was filming Songs Of Praise in Paris she came along as our interpreter. The cast have been great. A highlight has been working with a ten year old dwarf called Paddy, seeing the world through his eyes, his struggles with the tall world and his total inner confidence has been a spiritual experience!!! BELIEVE ME!

Paddy is a beautiful little soul, with so much natural talent, intelligence and a brilliant sense of comic timing. He stole all our hearts but above all he taught me so much about the bodies we live in and the way we choose to perceive ourselves. Here you have a boy, a small boy, living in a world made for giants and here you have me, a woman, who constantly worries about weight, size, work, my husband, my friends, paper work, lack of sleep and if I am liked . . . Paddy has none of these concerns, he is simply who and what he is . . . lesson learnt!

Over the past year I have had an growing intolerance of carrying other people’s opinions and perceptions of me. Sometimes this has been very uncomfortable as I’ve become the most obstinate person I know but I now realise I’ve been shedding my wonderful mothers intense disapproval of my wayward and insular nature.

On top of this clearly the decade of being in your 50s is about claiming yourself and shedding all guilt. I sensed something very strong on Christmas Day. And ever since I have felt totally transformed. My heart was warm with the presence of my mother, there was no sense of lose but an overwhelming sense of approval, this is something I could never have felt from her in the flesh, she was far too critical!

Yet on Christmas day I felt her presence and I felt overwhelming approval from her. It was a totally rewarding and freeing experience. I am transformed. On Boxing Day morning I was able to place my fathers cravats, jumpers, hat and mums notes, cards and shopping lists that had all been on my office shelf, close to me eye line for two years, into a memory box lovingly placed at the entrance to my office, (a room I spend more time in than any other room in our house). Time is short, there is a lot to do even in the 80 odd years we are all entitled to live and I feel I have a heck of a lot to get on with.

January is very special for me and I will let you know why in February! I’d like to thank everyone who has offered support to my friend Owen Reynolds and because of the interest taken in his story on Facebook a funding specialist has been in touch with him and is trying to have his medical funding reviewed so there is a glimmer of hope he will get the medicine that will improve his life quality . . . if this doesn’t work out I will let you know via twitter how we can help. I saw him on Christmas day and even though he isn’t at all well he is an incredible fighter and he thanked everyone personally for the support they have shown. THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN.

Now I’m off to study THE CHANGELING . . . never thought I’d be saying that! The thought of playing THE PACKT live again is both exhilarating and terrifying! More dates are to be announced along with autumn dates. The only thing holding the announcement back is everyone disappeared for Christmas!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND MAY 2012 BE WONDERFUL FOR US ALL.

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXX


FEBRUARY 2012

HELLO THERE!

Oh Boy! I've had a fantastic start to 2012. Not only have I had my first proper holiday since 2001! It was also my second honeymoon!

Sweetpea . . . AKA Robert Fripp . . . AKA Mr. Willcox took me on honeymoon. In 1986 I took him on honeymoon, well it was 5 days dodging journalists and photographers in high speed car chases around the country lanes of Dorset and Cornwall. Our second honeymoon was a lot more joyous and exciting.

On the 4th jan we flew into Chicago, missed out connection and had a really fabulous night in the airport Hilton watching a soccer game with the locals sipping the most expensive margarita in the world . . . 30$!!!!!!! Robert can be very pessimistic if out of his comfort zone but even he had a smile on face after the margarita hit. 7am the next day we hitched a flight to Portland then got a boneshaker to Seattle where . . . WE SAW BILL RIEFLIN!

I'm telling you there are three people in this marriage. Sweetpea, Bill and ME! No actually there are four . . . Sweetpea, Bill, Me AND BUNNY. But bunny couldn't come too. Before tongues wag Bill and Robert are inseparable…I tag along like the "just tolerated and besotted little sister, irritating the sh*t out of one and all". We had four days playing with Bill before he had to leave for Mexico to work with Peter Buck and Robyn Hitchcock.

I am not a drinker but we ended up in a fabulous Japanese restaurant, which had a " Happy Hour" that started at 10 am and finished at 7pm. We were the only ones in there. This is where I discovered pear Vodka. Bill hates me having a drink! Robert loathes me having a drink! Because I become morbidly HAPPY!

Bill still curses me for having a margarita after the New York HUMANS show in September, when I followed him around the venue laughing and being quite generally obscene. "GOD YOU'RE A F------ AWFUL DRUNK! YOU IDIOT." Quote. This is because when he stopped listening to me I started to speed dial him on his mobile all through the night laughing! Bill was not amused but at the time Wongy was hugely amused. Robert hates me drinking because he can no longer control me.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO . . . I discovered Pear Vodka in a Japanese restaurant in Seattle with the two men I'd happily die for. I hasten to add I sat on my hands so I couldn't annoy them as much as I would have if my hands where free to wander and I buttoned my lip so as not to lose my two best friends and I sat in the corner laughing at everything they said blissfully unaware if either had actually said anything funny. We had four joyous days together.

Robert and I stayed on a further two days and we walked Seattle from top to bottom. I did some great writing there and geared up to start writing HUMANS 3. Bill comes into the UK on the 14th March when we have our focused writing session before recording. After Seattle we flew to Las Vegas. I have never been to LV and have always wanted to go. Envying Robert every time he flew off there. Robert warned me you only need three days there, I couldn't comprehend why . . . until . . . we got there . . .

THE NOISE, THE SMOKE, THE DULL ELECTRIC LIGHT, THE TINTED WINDOWS, THE AIR CONDITIONING, THE IQs, CYNICISM MASQUAERADING AS HAPPINESS, THE PORTION SIZES, THE MOUSTURELESS AIR . . . shall I go on? We had six days there! We were prisoners of our own dreams and we had to make the most of it! The highlights were the shows. KA . . . utterly mind blowing. From the purpose built theatre to the magnificent performers…astounding!

LA REVE . . . THE DREAM . . . I never knew a theatre show could be done in a massive pool of water. The guts of the performers as they dropped from what must have been about 60 feet into a 30 foot width of water . . . WOW! And "O', again simply breath taking and truly worth being in Vegas for. One performer actually dived from about 90ft into a pool. I screamed out loud! I have always loved physical theatre and only in my fantasies have I envisaged life-defying performances and here in Vegas they are actually doing this twice a day.

We were very lucky to get tickets to see Celine Dion. Robert's sister Patricia, lives in Las Vegas and she treated us to both "O" and Celine. Again Celine's show was staggering, beyond the "world class" we all expect from an arena show. Las Vegas venues are around 2000 to 4000 capacity so intimacy is still possible and Celine was magnificent.

How anyone can sing in the air one gets in LV is a miracle, but she was singing for real and it was awesome! Patricia took us out on the Sunday to the mountains near her home and this was one of the best days we had. The magnificent scale and the colour of the rock, we walked with joy in our hearts to be out of maze of Vegas. I've had two offers to work in Vegas this year.

I imagine to work there is very exciting and I certainly wont say "no" . . . but I will go in for three days and out again! The main reason to protect my voice from the dry air. Dear Dave Lee passed away whilst we were away. I have done 3 pantomimes with Dave in Canterbury and numerous fund raisings for his Happy Holidays Charity. Dave, a very deserving MBE holder, had the most moving send off in Canterbury Cathedral. There were thousands there. The readings were inspirational and totally indifferent to the surroundings. Richard Digance started off with " What I love about the day Dave passed away is 49 Little Chefs closed down!" Dave was a larger than life man.

Bobby Davro finished with . . ." Dave and I have worked together many times, I remember when he was sweating like a glass blowers anus . . . ' The cathedral roared with laughter and applause all the way through but the real tear jerker happened when the Dean carried Dave's Ghostbuster bench into the aisle and the choristers sang GhostBusters . . . a Dave Lee panto staple! Dave raised thousands of pounds for under privileged children to have holidays with their families " Dave Lee's Happy Holidays". I am truly humbled by all he achieved. What a great man.

Work wise there is so much happening. We are already gearing up for the tour in April. The songs are chosen, the set list discussed, the learning process started and the costume design in motion. But also I've had some really interesting offers. One is to participate in an animation series of Sonia Copland Blooms children's books which are topping the best seller list at the National History Museum. (Sonia is Orlando Bloom's mum.)

I've walked myself happily into a corner by mentioning a short story I was writing to my acting agent who now wants it as a script by May . . . heaven help us both . . . deadlines are not my forte. AND a documentary is going to be made this year by Ali Carron one of the original ANGEL AND DEMONS, about 1983 and the "Angels and demons" who congregated outside the Mermaid theatre when I was appearing in Trafford Tanzi. So we will be posting an appeal soon for anyone there that year to get in touch with Ali if they are willing to be in the documentary.

I already know where I will be for Christmas and the autumn is looking fully booked too . . . ALREADY!

Have a great month. Keep warm and . . .

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXX


MARCH 2012

HELLO THERE!

Cor blimey! For one glorious moment I thought spring had arrived but now the rain is so dense outside of my window I almost need a torch to find my way around my computer.

I am getting HUGELY excited about getting out on the road again. This tour will be very different for the band because we are looking at a new set and deeper, darker more deranged songs. THE CHANGELLING is a graphically mad and moody album mirroring how bonkers I felt in 1982. I'd just won THE ROCK N' POP AWARDS BEST FEMALE SINGER category (this was the begining of the BRITS) and there was the constant stress and strains of a year of touring and writing behind us and ahead of us. We were lucky enough to have the anchor of STEVE LILLYWHITE who was the album producer and SIMON DARLOW came in on keyboards for the recording.

BOY OH BOY! The memories are intense. JOEL BOGEN was into writing more expansive songs and going into darker recesses of his own psyche and I could no longer walk down the street with out being mobbed . . . so one could safely say the songs from this album reflected the straight jackets of our lives at the time.

The Falklands war had just started and it was deeply depressing to think of all those young men being sent out to fight in a land far away, it was also deeply depressing to think war could ever happen again AND hey! Look at today! Where isn't there a war? So I believe the album in the end drew a picture of powerlessness leading to an inner battle.

For example we all live in open air, yet we are contained on one planet. We all live within the boundaries of a country we can leave, but we persist in crossing other peoples boundaries if we feel like it . . . so what would happen if we could leave the planet? We all dislike suffering yet it still happens and even if we stop one bout of suffering someone else, somewhere else, starts it off again.

So where do you turn? Like animals in a zoo we internalise to rationalise the cage. We can't get in a space ship and leave so we battle in our own heads, thoughts contained by inner rage and outer silence, rattling away in the confines of our skulls . . . THIS IS THE CHANGELING! THE PACKT hasn't been performed for about 30 years yet I think it has never been more relevant. CREEPY ROOM can now be associated to the growing number who surge towards the ugly world of celebrity and fame like refugees from banality being misled into another banality. CASTAWAYS looks like utopia for the battle weary!

We are to some extent replicating the WARRIOR ROCK set list of 1982 with the addition of CREEPY ROOM, BE PROUD BE LOUD and adding some die-hard favourites like BIRD IN FLIGHT and NEON WOMB. My costume is already hanging up and ready to go. It is a metal dress and it is surprisingly heavy! Sean Chapman is beavering away on my headwear. It has a puckish theme! God I can't wait. This tour is going to be electric!

BILL RIEFLIN flies in on the 13th March. We start writing and recording HUMANS 3. Both Bill and I have been discussing the sound approach and it will be a natural progression form SUGAR RUSH. Metal meets vocal harmony. God I can't wait for that either!

I've had a lot people ask me in the last month if my shiny new hip is metal on metal!!!!!!???????? No I am ceramic. I breathed a huge sigh of relief when I heard I wasn't metal on metal. But still with ceramic you need to be cautious in case you shatter it with an unwise move! Over winter I was dealing with PIRIFORMIS SYNDROME (a right pain in the arse) so I worked on one crutch during panto whilst I was undergoing physio to retrain my walk. I came off the crutch a month ago and am able to control the symptoms now, but it has taken three months to get back to normal!

Spring is so welcome. I need more hours in the day and spring supplies more daylight to work in! I am working on my first script, thanks to encouragement from my agent. A Horror Sci-fi. The writing process is really good for me and is instantly and positively influencing my songwriting.

POWER OF THREE is having a great 2012 so far, being selected for two film festivals: 1st Annual Brooklyn Girl Film Festival www.brooklyngirlfilmfest.com and Miami Women's International Film Festival screening at both in March/April. I want to see you all in April. It is really going to rock! There's a great new t-shirt going to be available too! Tickets are selling well. :) You can buy tickets by clicking on the links on the GIGS page.

We've been delving into the live archives and will be steaming some recent live recordings . . . one exclusive song a month starting this month. These will be up for ONE month only on the gigs page so take a listen.

Right! Back to writing!

See you at the CHANGELING RESURRECTION!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOVE TOYAH


APRIL 2012

HELLOooooooooo!

Mrs. Malaprop here!

I don't know whether age is simply setting in but I am coming out with corkers at the moment! Whist out walking with the "other half" I exclaimed "OOOH its lovely to spread my legs again!" This went down particularly well with hubby, we were surrounded by children on an Easter Egg hunt and he advised I should not shout this quite so loudly in public ever again!

Then there's the time I said something in front of my trusted friends The Humans and I can see them turning bright red as they try to stifle their amusement, during our writing session in February. "Ooooh that's a nice erection!" followed by stunned silence, until Wongoose cracks up and Bill realises I am not being vulgar, just vague about a crescendo in music. I adore the creative process, starting an album from scratch. Yielding to every idea you pluck out of the air and just going with the flow. Our writing session was very productive, 20 ideas, really good, rocking riffs and lots of space for narration.

The hardest part will be honing it all down to 12 tracks, there's a lot of choice there. We record in August/ September and I cant wait! It has been a "small world" recently. Bill and Don Gunn (our co-producer) have been running around Seattle with Simon Phillips who drummed on The Changeling and on Warrior Rock. Then when we tried to book the recording studio in Seattle for the summer, we discovered Steve Lillywhite, the producer on The Changeling, was in there mixing! I love synchronicity!

In the past week I've set about learning The Changeling and "setting" it in my head. I learn by repetition in this case, running over and over the material until I can recite it backwards. Funnily enough I have a very clear memory of the lyrics from 30 years ago but I want to set it to muscle memory so nothing can distract me when I am on stage. So I can be a storyteller as much as a singer because this album is about stories. When acting in a play, you are guaranteed a silent and attentive audience, with only the odd cough to distract you but when singing anything can grab your attention from someone trying to have a full on conversation with you from the front row to a streaker suddenly being at your side (believe me this has happened . . . twice!

On first re-listening to The Changeling I thought "my god this is pretentious twaddle!" then I remembered the circumstance it was written in. The Falklands War had just started and there was an atmosphere of disbelief and terror. It was a profoundly disturbing time. I remember my brother Kim being warned he could be put on stand by and my whole family were terrified for him. He was a Harrier fighter pilot in the early 1970's, luckily he never saw "action" in his time but because he was highly qualified there was a chance he might be called out of retirement. Thank god it never happened.

So here I am today, 2012, listening to an album I haven't listened to at all in 30 years thinking how am I going to perform this and believe in it and slowly as I repeatedly go over the tracks it dawns on me that there is a hell of a lot of really nice detail in it. The scope in the lyrics is very different to anything I'd written before and the style vocally is completely different to Anthem.

I am now really enjoying the "theatre" of the album. It is crammed with narrative and will be great to perform again. There will also be many Toyah Classics in the set, it will be a fun and "up" event with more theatre than darkness. So much so that my opening costume is quite a statement. Kind of corporate banker cross bred with the devil . . . very nice . . . sinister!

OOOOhhh I cant wait to get on the road and stuff your ears and eyes full of sound n' vision! The mundane has taken over my life in the past 6 weeks and I am starting to rebel……big time. Not wishing to sound ungrateful, or disrespectful but it has taken 3 months to clear my mothers and fathers belongings AND I mean 3 SOLID MONTHS! How any one managed to store so much STUFF into their home I have no idea!

It has taken 5 auctions, 59 box's of books, 20 trips in four cars to the charity shops, crammed with so much stuff (really lovely things) but some of the charity shops actually refused to take any more. This experience has left my whole immediate family determined not to ever let anyone have to do this after we have gone . . . we are all clearing out our cupboards and box rooms! PLEASE GET ME ON THE ROAD AND OUTTA HERE!

Right . . . back to learning! Back to eating carrots! Yes! Carrots! It's my pre tour diet! Gotta be fit, gotta be slim . . . well slim-ish . . . I am trying! . . . Failing miserably but trying! See you out there! Oh one last cautionary request . . . please no spray-string! It has an oil base residue and can cause me to slip and fall on stage. Falling can be a problem for me. I don't want to spend the whole show terrified of slipping!

THANK YOU! I CANNOT WAIT! IT IS GOING TO BE A SCREAM!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOTS OF LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXX


MAY 2012 

Hello and welcome!

What a fantastic month April turned out to be.

I can honestly say I had no idea that the Changeling was such a popular album! This time last month I was worried sick about how we where going to make it all work live, it felt like a potentially heavy and clumpy piece of work but we all stepped on stage at Brighton and the missing link stepped in to make each song so relevant and current in today's climate and that was THE AUDIENCE! Boy oh Boy! Song after song the temperature just kept on rising along with the energy.

EVERYONE sang along to CREEPY ROOM! This took me totally by surprise and at almost every show everyone has laughed their way through the last section "I've been a naughty, naughty girl, I've spoken out loud against the world, Their sending me to the creepy room, for some chemically induced fear, because my minds out of tune" . . . the whole audience in hysterics!

BRAVE NEW WORLD, CASTAWAYS, VOODOO DOLL were received with rapture only to be toped by another level of ecstasy when we played DAWN CHORUS, a song I never believed would work live again but it grabs everyone by the proverbial balls and holds us together as one, but the best was saved for THE PACKT!

My god to look out and see everyone's face during this apocalyptic song just made my nerves tingle! At Bush Hall I saw one man looking to the ceiling and thanking God during the intro, that was a new on me! In fact every night I had "hair standing up on the back of my neck" moments, especially with THE PACKT and BRAVE NEW WORLD.

It is a funny thing in the entertainment industry but your critics remain in your memory far longer than the times of praise. Not this time, I'm too wise to hold onto spite, only joy will remain in my memory from now on, ….well that AND the times I've really enjoyed irritating my fellow band members, husband, members of The Humans . . . but that's another story . . . With me I have always been highly motivated by negative criticism. Bloody lucky really, as I think part of British culture is you get it in bucket loads! You either laugh it off, develop a thick skin or get crushed, I think I've experienced all three!

My favourite as I grow older is " thick skin". I was brought up at home and at school with heap upon heap of negativity, lovingly thrown at my every enthusiasm and thank god this was so, otherwise id be dawdling round Ibiza now looking at my navel (actually I'd quite like that for a week or two.) So, on stage this month, I was taken by surprise at the wave of praise and appreciation, it has in fact been a joyous month with every show being totally, utterly, magnificently enjoyed by the band and myself.

We all decided after the tour last autumn to spread the shows a bit so none of us got too tired or under par. One very dominating factor with singing the Changeling is I needed to return to a three octave range . . . a near impossibility if your singing every day, so we spaced the shows right out so I could keep my top notes clear. The voice is a complex and miraculous instrument and one thing is for certain . . . you cannot change its strings if the sound gets tired! Exactly a year ago I retrained as a singer with a voice specialist who taught me how to access the higher notes again and also protect my vocal chords for the future. It paid off!

The remainder of 2012 just gets better and better. The autumn Changeling tour is up on now on this site, with possibly about four more shows to be added. Wongy, Bill and I start Humans 3, which I have tentatively named UP. AND we are announcing a few very special HUMANS shows very, very soon! I hope to see you all in Bishop Stortford for a party of a show.

REMEMBER THE PACKT . . .

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXX


JUNE 2012

HELLO and THANK YOU to everyone for the Birthday wishes.

I spent my 54th Birthday in two cities, waking up in York and going to bed in Durham, purely intentional. I hadn't ventured off in some forgetful state . . . not yet!

I was performing for The Stroke Association in Durham on the 19th May and I had my hubbies company for the week so I thought RIGHT! Lets get away from my office, which now runs 20 hours a day AND lets get Frippy away from his constant litigations and continuing wars with big corporate organisations. I swear my husband was Attila the Hun in a past life, he is permanently in War mode. Currently he is suing Universal Music for illegally selling his catalogue . . . GO BOY!

So we ventured to York City on his birthday, the 16th May, also our 26th wedding anniversary and spent two restful days sight seeing and eating cake at Betty's Tea Room. Thank Goodness there isn't a Betty's Tea Rooms near our home because they'd have to put security bars across the doors to stop me gnawing my way in in the dark of night. We had lunch with the Pauper kings, ex – Vampires Rock boys. It was great to catch up with them, they opened for McFly a few months ago, so they were on a high and we talked about working together next year.

Then on to Durham, which I fell in love with, everyone was so friendly. Robert and I made our way to the Cathedral perched on a hill in the centre of the city. It is absolutely stunning. We were interested in the history and the architecture but discovered a living vibrant practicing community which bared no resemblance to the sometimes offputting snobbishness of other places, instead here was a full Cathedral buzzing with musicians and artists all having a fantastic time. It was totally unexpected!

We discovered the tomb of St. Cuthbert . . . "Cuthbert was born about 625 and died in 687, he entered a monastery and became successively Prior of Melrose Abbey, Prior of Lindisfarne and finally Bishop of Lindisfarne where he spent most of his days, ending his life as a hermit. After his death and in the face of Viking invasions, the monks of Lindisfarne carried his body on their wanderings until finally they came to Durham in 995 and built a shrine for him in the White Church which was later replaced by the present Cathedral."

You can pray to St. Cuthbert for healing so I suggested to Robert we better get on our knees and do so. St. Cuthbert is in a private shrine at the far end of the Cathedral. My thinking being after a few years of my body getting its revenge on me and with Robert showing signs of general madness perhaps St. Cuthbert could help us out.

Then I thought we should pray for Bill Rieflin too in the hope his general everyday perversions might be eliminated, he might put some weight on his skinny frame and kindness seep through his sinewy person (he will kill me for this last sentence) so Robert and I found ourselves not only praying but trying to tweet it too, mobile camera in hand at the shrine. Then shame came over me and I hid the phone . . . some things are still sacred and even with the advancement of technology some things should remain invisible!

I returned "up north" last week for the Decades festival in Workington West Cumbria where the locals, again, were extremely friendly, but in a different way. Stepping out of my car at the hotel a young man with a pint in his hand asked for a photo with me, of course I said yes. So with pint in one hand he robustly placed his spare hand on my left buttock and said smile for the camera. I thought "What! Down south you'd be put in jail for the night for that", but he was friendly and indicated he would like to take things further so I moved on and locked myself in my room.

Then later a very nice man drove me to the venue for soundcheck and in the conversation I asked a question I always ask people "what birth sign are you?" To which the reply came "I'm not going to sleep with you, you know!" Right, so very quickly I was putting 2 and 2 together and getting 5 and realised that in Workington and possibly the whole of West Cumbria, that the men are "up for it".

At this point I'd recommend to all single women of the world to get "up north" as quickly as possible but I'm sure many attached women in Cumbria might not appreciate the invasion, so lets just leave it at "the men folk are very friendly", possibly descendants of Vikings, very worth a quick visit one day, but don't expect feminism and the female vote to be a topic of conversation!

And a BIG THANK YOU to the local police for delivering me to the venue for the show and getting me back to the hotel again, you were fantastic! I had a brilliant time there, it was completely different to any other place I have been and that is exactly what I love about Great Britain, it is like thousands of different countries all held together as one, no place is the same and no people are the same . . . Great Britain is a Gem!

This month I have 20 songs to finish off for The Humans second writing session in three weeks time. That's a lot to do and I must stop procrastinating! The new album is going to be sooooo different to the last two and will be the first actual trilogy I have managed to complete in the whole of my career!

Have a fantastic Jubilee weekend, I'm of to King's Lynn for a private party, performing with Katrina and Limahl, then back across to headline Birmingham Pride.

May the sun shine on your celebrations wherever you are.

LOVE TOYAH

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX


JULY 2012

HELLO AND AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR!

As you well know it hasn't stopped raining for about two months now. Yes it's fantastic that the reservoirs are filling a treat and the garden still looks like a garden and not a parched desert but the only way I get to relax these days is to grab a book and read in the sun.

For some inextricable reason I am now so busy that I barely get time to eat. I can't put my finger on it but every hour is filled to the brim with dead lines, demands and paperwork from 7am to 9pm most days including Sundays! I thought life was supposed to slow down after 50, I can only see it speeding up.

But enough moaning for this month, joy arrived in the form of the HUMANS resuming our writing sessions and laughter filled the air every day. I hired a local hotel's band room and we moved in for a week, locked the doors and emerged with 14 brilliant . . . oh yes! 14 BRILLIANT SONGS! Radically different from anything we have done before. It looks like once all three albums are put together as a trilogy they will all have a different flavour but a similar twist. I can't wait to get to Seattle to start recording.

Decades FestivalBoth Bill and Wong eat the equivalent of a small army's rations per day so to make sure we didn't leave the writing room for hours on end I used to make cheese and pickle sandwiches from giant cottage loaves made at the local bakery . . . between them they ate a whole loaf and a large bottle of Branston Pickle a day and had a huge evening meal and neither of them are fat!!!!!!

Bill arranged for us to see Patti Smith and her band in Bath. Bill has drummed for Patti on many occasions and is very close to Lenny Kaye. Robert even came with us so we all set off in the one car for a fantastic evening. God she was great! The venue was perfect, seated, the audience were all 40 upwards and we were happy to sit . . . the rebellious middle aged. Patti walked on and she looked so astonishingly beautiful, why can't we see models as deep and interesting and as strangely beautiful in magazines?

Why has the modern concept of beauty become thinly veiled misogyny and legalised peadophilia. I looked at her and felt a kind of grief that her mettle and stance and attitude isn't common place in the greater world, partly because of her age and mostly because she is too plain strong for her own good. Patti's voice was astounding, starting almost mouse like then building and building as she became possessed with the show.

I saw her for the first time in 1977 at the Astoria Theatre (or was it the Round House?) in London and she was utterly magnificent then, physically throwing herself around the stage self harming and dangerous but here in Bath, there was a calm about her, she has grown into a person who so confidently knows who and what she is, we all felt we were with her in her front room having a nice social with blindingly great songs bursting out of the seams in the company of someone who could explode like a volcano if the fancy took her. Afterwards Bill got Lenny to sign his latest book for both Robert and myself saying he was a big fan of the both of us . . . I WAS THRILLED!

I arrived home that night totally inspired and excited about the decade ahead, with the thought that age pulls focus and clarity on the future for the work of my past, which is what it felt like watching Patti. Today I am getting ready for THE KINGS HEATH WALK OF FAME. I am excited! I think it is going to be a scream, I have never played Kings Heath ever and it feels like a homecoming. So many people are travelling to be there and I am immensely grateful.

The unveiling of the star is around 11am to 12 noon, then we are on stage at the HARE AND HOUNDS from 8pm, there will be no support because we are going to do two sets. I'm hoping it is going to feel very intimate and special for everyone. The set list is nothing like this years tour, it is going to be more of a retrospective We are adding some favourite songs that haven't been preformed lately ie; LITTLE TEARS OF LOVE , ELUSIVE STRANGER, LATEX MESSIAH and a few others to make it a total retrospective . . . CANT WAIT! SEE YOU THERE!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOTS OF LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX


AUGUST 2012

Hello and God Bless you for your support at The Walk of Fame day!

WOW! It was both wonderful and poignant.

There was a delightful eccentricity about the day, a normal-ness as life went on upon Kings Heath high street yet it was monumental for me. My father often told the story of how my paternal grandfather walked from Lincoln with a wheelbarrow full of tools in search of work, some time before the First World War, ending up in Kings Heath, Birmingham where he met his wife and set up a construction business. So what an honour to have my name on the pavement of not only my home town but a town my grandfather put phenomenal effort into to reaching!

Bev Bevan of The Move/ ELO very kindly presented the star and my husband even helped me with the reveal, which was the icing on the cake! As Bev made the presentation speech I was pinching myself remembering how the whole family used to watch him on Top Of The Pops during the 70s. If I'd have known this day would come I would have been counting the hours, minutes seconds . . .

The concert in the evening was perfect. Very intimate, the venue only takes 250, the sound was fantastic, the best on stage sound we have had in years, the set list was fun and the track the audience voted for Blue Meaning was the best it has ever been . . . the band's playing was stunning. A big thank you to everyone who made it happen and to all who came to see.

Hubby has suddenly started to do TV interviews. I only flag this up because this is a man who flees all photo opportunities and autograph requests. So when a request came in for him to be interviewed for BBC4 on "Love and Marriage", I was amazed to hear he said yes because so far he has turned down every music programme BBC4 has offered him.

I think we are featured in programme 2 or 3 of the series, which airs in September. I have to say I was very impressed with how much my husband remembered about the wedding day because I couldn't remember a thing accurately, probably because I was cooking and looking after guests most of the wedding day. But I do remember I was terrified, it felt so final and binding, Robert felt the same too. I'm surprised we both didn't do a runner!

AND as if Roberts agreeing to appear on TV wasn't shock enough imagine my jaw hitting the floor when he agreed to open the WICK SUMMER FETE on the 1st September !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! does he know people will photograph him and ask for autographs? I will be in Seattle by this time waiting to hear stories of my husband fleeing the hordes of autograph hunters with their cameras in hand . . .

My hubby has somewhat dominated my thoughts and actions this year. It started in February when he told me he felt he could no longer do the 67 incredibly steep steps up to my apartment in France, funnily enough I thought I'd be the one to announce this first, but after many tears I agreed to sell my beloved home in Menton. Boy it broke my heart.

Then a few weeks ago we both went over to say goodbye to the apartment and the town forever, me still in floods of tears at the thought of not having a base there. We were having our last breakfast on the balcony when my phone rang. It was my friend Tracy who has looked after me in France for seven years. A first floor apartment in the market square was for sale. We ran to see it, it was perfect and two hours before catching the plane back to the UK . . . we got it!

Now all I have to do is hire the wild horses to drag hubby to the knee specialist before he starts crawling on his hands and knees . . . why is it so hard getting a man to a doctor? It is a busy, busy, busy time! Not only am I doing press for the autumn tour and planning the set list, costumes etc but I start HUMANS 3 in Seattle in three weeks and I am still honing the lyrics and key melodies, which I love doing but it takes time. On top of this Vintage TV has picked up an idea I gave them for a music series and it looks like being a 12 part series and another production company has picked up a serious documentary idea for development, so as usual I am wearing many hats.

I am looking forward to the autumn tour immensely, it has been planned sensibly so we can all give a 110% each night, especially me, because the songs require so many octave jumps, so we have made sure there are no more than three shows in a row in any given week allowing me to use my voice to the full each night and not have to hold back to save myself for the five other shows over the same week! AND because the "vote for your favourite song" was so popular with the Walk Of Fame concert we are going to do this again so each show has a slightly different slant, but will still be anchored by The Changeling theme.

The Olympics have been stunning. I don't quite get the anger when people lose, for me just seeing everyone take part so brilliantly is thrilling enough, and they are so young, I could never achieve what these athletes have achieved even when I was their age. The opening ceremony was staggering. I actually flew close to the stadium at 10pm on the Friday and it was throbbing with light. Watching the whole event the next day I was thrilled to see Muhammad Ali taking part.

I actually met him once, briefly, at Capitol Radio in London around 1982 or 3, and he was quite awe inspiring. It was late, about 10pm and he arrived with four bodyguards who looked as if they were carrying shooters, who ensconced themselves in the four corners of the studio. Muhammad had about three girlfriends with him. At a guess his mind was already effected by the brutality of his career, but he was courteous and fun and every inch a legend!

Back to writing HUMANS 3.

I write with a yellow parker ballpoint pen my sister gave me in 1982, which I wrote The Changeling lyrics with. I have written every lyric since with it and still do today!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXX


SEPTEMBER 2012

HELLO THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS A WAVE FROM SEATTLE!

We are madly gearing up for the CHANGELING autumn dates, getting very excited, adding new ideas, new numbers, stretching the time period covered in the last tour and creating a new image. It's busy, busy, busy! If you missed the spring dates, be sure to catch the autumn because live TOYAH dates possibly won't be happening again for about 12 months! I am writing this from Seattle, where HUMANS 3 is underway.

We have 12 fantastic songs to put down and they are a total departure from anything we have done before. Yesterday we played them to our engineer Don Gunn and he sat there smiling saying "WOW! I didn't expect that! It's great!" It's fun, takes unexpected directions. It's infectious and eccentric . . . I am really happy about it and can't wait to play the new stuff live. Bill Rieflin has taken the decision to record onto 2" tape and transfer onto digital, so the sound is warmer. We are using Valve microphones that have a unique sound of their own. Basically we are using techniques that were common practice 30 years ago in order to capture a livelier, fatter quality. This album will very likely be released on CD and VINYL.

Presently we are in the slightly unenviable position of recording 12 songs in ten days. This may sound like a bizarre statement, but we are putting in 4 part harmonies, saxophones, cellos, drums (YES! DRUMS!) and the kitchen sink so it we need all the time we can muster.

I feel like I am a member of the Monkeys because we are all staying at Bill's house and loving it. Bill is doing the cooking and it is fabulous…….he is a great chef. On the first evening we had a fish casserole with chard, herbs, garlic, tomatoes and olive oil bread……Igor bought over Russian cakes . . . OH YUMMY! On our second night we had beef & potato pie with sag and rosemary, . . . sublime! Bill is still skinny . . . I am short and fighting middle age weight gain, this is hard stuff when the chef is sublime.

Throughout August we had a TV crew at our house. Robert, surprisingly, agreed to do an interview for the BBC 4 LOVE AND MARRIAGE series. This in turn led to me being interviewed too. I really must give my husband credit here; he remembered everything about our wedding day in minute detail. For me it is almost a distant blur, confused by a million events since!

On a more technical point, people who know me well, have had first hand experiencd of what I appear to do to electrical apparatus, basically I break it with out touching it, the smaller the item the less chance it has if I stand near it. I take great pleasure in supermarkets when cash tills at the check out seize up when I stand next to them. On the first day of filming I sat down in the kitchen to start the interview when the cameraman announced, "This has never happened to me before, the camera isn't working, I will need to have another sent over!"

Two hours later the new camera arrived, worked, and my interview was done. By this time Robert had left for another job and the crew needed to come back the following week to interview him. The interview that will air on BBC 4 on the 26th September will only be one part of an hour-long programme, about 15 mins long, but the crew came back again, and again AND AGAIN! Wanting more stories from Robert and myself. The head BBC commissioner liked our story so much he wanted it to feature more heavily.

Three times the crew returned, very nice people. But here is why I am telling you this. In light of the stories the newspapers are highlighting about the beeb this year, Robert and I were paid 300 pounds each minus 15% commission to my agent for 3 days work, which used our house, our time, which also needed to cover finding and copying all the archive material used in the show AND we bought the crew lunch! There is a mighty imbalance here that needs addressing!

There's been a few fun things in the press this month too. According to local press I opened the Wick Fete on the 1st Sept, . . . not even I own a time machine that could transport me from Seattle to the UK! And as for opening fetes . . . this is just not my thing, give me another ten years then I might consider it! SURPRISE! SURPRISE! Robert opened it and loved it!

It has been an honour to discover I am the cover girl of the NATIONAL TRUST magazine this season, 4 million subscribers. We did the shoot at CROOME COURT in the most hideous rain storm imaginable, we laughed and laughed it was so ridiculous, it was like standing in a power shower turned to "cold" for two hours, but the shots are beautiful. However the interview inside says I've had two hip replacements! GIVE ME A CHANCE I'M STILL TRYING TO WEARING OUT THE FIRST ONE!

Oh! And it says I am 52 . . . I'm cool about that, nothing wrong with being two years younger for a season!

I'm away to the recording studio. Don't forget to vote for the two songs you would like to hear on the upcoming tour at the GIGS page!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXXXXXX


OCTOBER 2012

HELLO FROM SUNNY ENGLAND! Seattle was fantastic and the recording couldn’t have gone better for HUMANS 3. People are starting to hear the material as it is mixed and all the reports back are very excited and favourable AND SURPRISED!

There are some very commercial songs with radio potential! TEE HEE! Our new sound was possibly helped by the fact we were right on the strip in West Seattle in a fantastic studio built by a member of Pearl Jam. The studio was stunning and the street outside was vibrant with college life and ageing hippies, so typical of America. We decided to record onto 2” tape (like the old days) then convert to digital. We also used valve microphones (like the old days) so the sound is warm, vintage and alive.It is only by using these techniques again that you realise how harsh digital can be.

In all, this plan worked out really well, but was a headache for our engineer Don Gunn when it came to drum overdubs because every time we overdubbed he had to re-route the cabling, which could take up to an hour in some cases. So after 10 days of wires, knobs and three demanding musicians you could tell Don didn’t want to see a 24 track tape machine again for quite a while. The new album, temporarily called SCAR has bass, drums, strings, sax, keyboards and three vocalists. I’m the main vocalist but I’ve been pushing Bill to sing with me for years as he has the most wonderful voice and our voices blend fantastically . . . this time I got my way!

The band Death Cab For Cutie lent us their touring amps, which gave us such a fat bass sound . . . thank you guys. In fact THANK YOU TO EVERYONE, your generosity abounds. Recording and singing apart Bill had lots of fun telling the locals my name was Daisy. So on many occasions whist collecting food orders for the boys I was left bewildered when people very warmly said “ there you go Daisy”, or on one occasion I forgot to pick up Bill’s potato salad and was chased down the street by a tattooed teenager calling “Daisy! Daisy! You forgot your potato salad!” Thanks Bill! Most evenings Bill would cook Italian recipes for us, he is a remarkably good cook. Wong and my waist-lines started expanding so long walks were in order, boy, Americans eat a lot!

Now back in the UK, the TOYAH tour is underway and it’s going great guns. Having just done Sheffield, which was an astonishing show, I can’t wait for the rest of the tour. The band are playing breathtakingly well and I’m loving being on stage with them. The Changeling set is not only good fun it is also really satisfying. I look forward to each song. I’d never have thought this possible at the beginning of the year. The thought of performing The Pact and Brave New World terrified me but now I cant wait for the Guitar to strike the first chord of each . . . I LOVE EM!

For me the audience “song” vote is a lot of fun, in Middlesbrough we did a live vote on the night, we all enjoyed the challenge of. It makes each evening really interesting to put in songs we wouldn’t otherwise do, so thank you for voting. Make the most of seeing this tour because next year, even though the band is going out for festivals we wont be actually touring again until October 2013.

I’ve spent the week fending off press asking questions about Jimmy Saville. I only worked with him three times that I can remember. There was TOP OF THE POPS, JIM WILL FIX IT and I interviewed him for the DAILY MAIL in 2001. I cant say I knew him. Talking to Tony Blackburn this week, Tony said he was steering clear of the whole thing, for what reasons wasn’t clear but I imagine one reason is he doesn’t want to speak ill of the dead. Also if you don’t have a definite story with clear defined events to report why add to the fire. In my experience there were always rumours about Jimmy.

There was an article this past weekend in the Weekend Mail is a piece that is the most accurate depiction of how young women were perceived at the time and quite rightly points out that in the 1970’s and 1980’s young women were fare game to predatory men and school girls where every mans dream and ambition to bed, just look at the most popular TV show of the time Benny Hill! Feminism and the law intervened to address this eventually but I remember in my adolescent school days being either approach or followed home by predatory men attracted to my school uniform, then in the early days of my music career being deemed too old at 20 for the attentions of my fellow male workmates.

Jimmy Saville very possibly did the things he is accused of, but so did many others too! One actress I’ve worked with in the past, was raped in her teens because of her impish looks. In my past experience if you weren’t ready to beat the living daylights out of a man to ward off uninvited interest then you did get groped or even worse. Saying NO was never a sufficient deterrent. Luckily I was never afraid to use my left hook. I hate to say it but there must be more men of a certain age out there, who worked in show biz in the 60’s, 70’s and 80’s who know how they behaved in the past.

Not all of them, but a certain group of them who took advantage of their power and status. And interestingly the one’s being named this week are the ones I remember taking pleasure in humiliating women of all ages . . . On a happier note . . .

I CANT WAIT TO BE GIGGING!

SEE YOU OUT THERE! BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD!

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXX


NOVEMBER 2012

HELLO AND HAPPY PRE-CHRISTMAS!

Vintage TV and my goodself have just finished filming TOYAH'S CHRISTMAS AT THE ZOO, for their Christmas season. We had a fantastic day at ZSL LONDON ZOO with superb sunshine, wonderful animals in surprisingly good habitats that suited their temperaments and lots of laughter. My favourite experience was being with 9 infant otters that were all playing with 2 pebbles like expert acrobats Oh and us all getting locked in the aquarium after the zoo had closed. We thought we were in for the night but luckily someone had keys in the office and we escaped half an hour later!

The Changeling Resurrection Tour ended at Brighton this month on such a high! What a crazy day. Thanks to technology in the space of 6 hours I shot a new session with Dean Stockings, filmed Chockywockydoodah with Nigel Glocker and helped Ali Carron set up shooting her documentary before taking the stage for one of the most exciting 2 hour gigs I can remember since Drury Lane in 1981. The audience were GREAT! And the band excelled yet again. It all ended on a WOW!

The whole tour has been really satisfying with the right mix of songs from THE CHANGELLING, ANTHEM, SHEEP FARMING and BLUE MEANING. All four albums have such radically different moods they really compliment each other. LOVE IS THE LAW 2013 TOUR is already in the planning, and dates are going in thick and fast for late Sept/ Oct/ early November. The tour will be called LOVE IS THE LAW & GREATEST HITS . . . bit of a mouth full but promoters want all ages to come! Thank you to everyone for your support. Thank you to all of you who came to see the show many times. At the Harlequin Emanuel from France presented me with 5 astonishing painter Russian dolls. Thank you, they are exquisite!

I received beautiful flowers in Birmingham and John Wain made the band a cake for Manchester. At Brighton Chockywockydoodah made a Changeling cake which is soooooo yummy! The next 7 months are a marathon. I start panto rehearsals on Monday and open in Canterbury's Marlowe Theatre with SLEEPING BEAUTY on the 30th November. This runs through till the 20th Jan 2013, then I am going over to Seattle to do some work with Bill on HUMANS 3, getting the artwork and promotion ready for the new year and hopefully shooting a video whilst in Seattle.

Then in February the rehearsals for HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES start! HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES is a three hander comedy about . . . HORMONAL HOUSEWIVES! Apparently the audience gets very, very rowdy! The script is hilarious and to be honest takes its humour right to the borderline, but as it is written by a women and performed by women . . . WHY NOT! We are performing at 67 venues across Great Britain in three months. I am really looking forward to the experience and acting on stage again.

NOW FOR THE SERIOUS BITS…. Last week I was asked to give an interview to BBC NEWSNIGHT about the attitudes to women during the 1970s and 1980s. This was a tricky one to do without implicating every man I have ever known, but the fact of the matter is women were living in a completely different world 30 years ago to the world we inhabit today. The main difference being was 30 years ago women were supposed to be flattered if a man was inappropriate towards her. Trying to word this without sounding like Mary Whitehouse was really bloody hard.

Also my big enemy Mercury In Retrograde starts this week for the rest of the month, which can mean my being misrepresented in all forms of communication. But NEWSIGHT asked me before hand to write down my experiences briefly and I wrote . . . "My memories of the 1970s was that most men under the age of 30 aspired to sleeping with school girls. Most musicians I knew at the time liked to hang out at the school gates at hometime. There was a very definite and accepted culture of perving after girls in school uniforms. I count myself lucky that I wasn't a 'looker' because if I was I would have been constantly targeted and under pressure to give sexual favours.

Within music, there was a very strong tendency for women to have to 'give out' to get somewhere in showbusiness. This was the period of the Yorkshire Ripper. Women were not as protected as they are today. I truly believe at this time some men admired the ripper. Even though I believe children today have more under aged sex than ever, I believe they are having it with their own age groups, not older men.

Times have changed.a lot and for the better. "Back then women were seen sexually before intellect. Jimmy Savile's behaviour is totally wrong, but there were many men around his time who sailed as close to the forbidden boundary as Jimmy, but Jimmy took it into a life of exploitation and perversion. Everyone named in the past weeks, Jimmy, Glitter, Starr all took immense pleasure in humiliating women in public and to their faces. I have nothing but bad memories from meeting them all. But I have no solid evidence of them abusing other than humiliation."

What really spooks me about these past sentences is they were written on the 26th October and now Savile is linked to the Yorkshire Ripper! The pressures of the last month didn't ease with doing NEWSNIGHT. I feel we are looking at a "historic period" that all have moved on from, especially in the context of women. BUT then all the news kicked in about the LIVERPOOL CARE PATHWAY which led to the realisation my mother was told she had been put on this whilst she was alone, without any family with her to support her.

Mum went into the hospice on the Friday, expecting to be assessed and to come home, but her health deteriorated rapidly and by the Monday it was obvious to us she wasn't going to make it home. I performed at Manchester Pride on the Monday and went home to bed afterwards, expecting to see mum Tuesday lunch time onwards.

On the Tuesday morning, four days before she died, I had a call from a nurse saying "your mother has had a bad episode; please don't worry but can you come in." "what do you mean, is she about to die?" "No she is upset about something . . . " I thought this was because she had been moved into a single room. I drove straight around to the hospital where my mother was in a full panic attack with a nurse saying "it's OK Barbara the end is near."

I asked the nurses never to talk to my mother like that again and they were very apologetic. I shed tears thinking of my mothers fear in this moment. I am not saying anyone has done anything wrong, but this language is brutal.

Myself, my family and mums best friend didn't leave mum's side until she died, making sure she only had words of comfort in her last hours. DON'T LET THE NHS BRUTALISE DEATH . . . IT IS A DEEPLY SPIRITUAL AND TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE . . . LIKE BIRTH! On a happier NOTE! I cannot wait for Christmas. I cannot wait to be in Canterbury and performing in the show. This is my family now. Its funny but when I used to watch Judy Garland in A Star Is Born I always wondered how someone's life could hang on the tenuous surroundings of showbiz . . . but this is MY FAMILY NOW!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXX


DECEMBER 2012


For the last three weeks I have been having a fantastic time in Canterbury. Rehearsing Sleeping Beauty has been a joy. It is a fantastic show and in so many ways a cut above what people would expect from a Christmas show, with many surprises that I will keep under wraps so as not to spoil it for anyone who is coming along.

Also the company itself are the loveliest and most supportive gang. Come January 20th I think we will all be very sad it is over. For me, to be in one place for a period of time feels like a total luxury! The same bed, the same bathroom, healthy food available and lots of happy faces! There has been some great experiences. Turning on the Christmas lights in Herne Bay, Deal, Dover and Canterbury has been such a special way to start the Christmas festivities.

This is one of the slightly eccentric things expected of a panto cast, we are bundled into a van, in costume and herded out to meet people and to start their Christmas in their community and it NEVER, NEVER fails to move me to tears. Looking out over the crowds and seeing children who still believe in Santa, seeing families together and the whole spirit of Christmas coming to life is a privilege. In rehearsals there has been much laughter, mainly because away from an audience and out of sounds reach from the public most of the jokes where very blue, being followed by the director/writer Paul Hendy shouting “Don’t you dare say that!”

There are 15 of us in the company and just as many staff but we took huge delight in hiding from Paul if he left the rehearsal room, so he’d return to an empty silent space and after 20 seconds we’d all run out screaming. This prank was also played on Gareth Gates who, bless his cotton socks, jumped out of his skin! Working with young talented people today has become quite fascinating from an anthropological point of view . . . when I was in my 20’s I was loud, brash and bombastic and that was the case with everyone of the same age I knew in show business back then.

Today the younger people in the company generally are not as anarchic as the older ones. With Gareth’s generation you can really see the influence of TV, there is almost an introspective approach to performance and a lot of subtlety which has taught me a lot about hanging on to “realism” before I career off into “ultra madness” with my character. Decades FestivalDecades FestivalDecades Festival Gareth has the most wonderful voice, with depth and command and he isn’t afraid to talk about his stutter, he has exercises that help him focus on the vowel sounds, which allows him flow of speech. I feel I should mention my corset . . . it has a life of its own. Therefore it should have its own credit in the panto programme.

When I read the script for the first time I thought “oh, ok, I am going to be walking on speaking a bit, walking off,” BUT NO! I am running, fighting, being lifted, being dragged off, being dragged on in a chariot! During all this my corset has a life of its own. It kind of threatens to undo itself and reveal too much at key moments, such as when I am running across stage in a ballet tutu. Funnily enough this gets more laughter from the balconies than it does from the stalls as they can see the effect of the running in the massive ripple effect it has on my ample chest! I quite enjoy the fact my character is always defeated and is always scuppered.

It means I can go to extremes with out worrying that the children in the audience are going to be too upset and believe me in this show there are moments that would have really disturbed me when I was a child, huge depths of sadness and awe inspiring fear mixed with totally surreal humour. AND the best thing for me is . . . I get to sing a METALLICA song with Chris Wong running on and doing a guitar solo . . . IN PANTO! There isn’t much time off on a run like this. We have 97 shows in 7 weeks. There’s a lot of publicity to do right through the run and a lot people to meet and greet, so I just about get time to go out and buy food for the day before the marathon starts. Luckily all the Christmas shopping is done, I finished that in November.

My husband has suddenly become a jaunty dresser, the most rock n’ roll I’ve ever known him to be, so I have purchased LOTS of items to support his new eccentricity! On Christmas Day itself our meal will be prepared by a restaurant next door and delivered on Christmas Eve, so all we have to do is pop it in the oven! Because on Christmas Day all I want to do is sleep, eat and watch DVDs! This will be our first Christmas on our own in 27 years, so being true Taureans we will indulge but not move far.

I bet we even up having Christmas lunch in bed! Hubby has been returning from America recently with the promise of great DVDs of the kind we love . . . horror sci-fi! OOOOOOOH ROLL ON CRIMBLE! OH! It’s showtime, first of the day! I wish you all a fantastic Christmas, with peace, love and happiness. Thank you to all of you for your support this year and lets do it all again in 2013!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

BE PROUD, BE LOUD, BE HEARD.

LOVE TOYAH XXXXXXXXXX

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